what hurts more is that I would still die for you.I saw World Trade Center yesterday. It was pretty great. I saw Miami Vice a few days ago, and that made me really want to embrace my hispanic culture. WTC made me really want to go fuck some terrorists up. Maggie Gyllenhaal (sp?) was really good in the movie ( Read more... )

Life is wonderful. Love is bliss. There’s nothing more than that. We go through pain and heartache, sure, but doesn’t that tend to usually lead to better, happier times? The simple “what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger” mentality? Yet I’ve learned that we don’t necessarily grow stronger. We just seem to grow, whether it is wiser, older, ( Read more... )

strange waking dreams before my eyes unfold.Je cherche en vain les mots pour expliquer mon vie ( Read more... )

"There is a purpose that is you. But how do you uncover that purpose ( Read more... )

A few days ago, I talked to my biological mom's nephew. My cousin. I hadn't spoken to him in about twelve years, and he called me out of the blue. It was so great gearing from him. Last time I saw him, he was dunking my head into the river behind our house. How times change. Seriously. I'm still kind of dumbfounded that I spoke to him ( Read more... )

i got home really early last night. at around 10ish.

i made some toast for dinner, and i fell asleep after SNL.

I don't think I have been home or gone to bed that early in a really long time.

it was nice to just relax. but i had some crazy dreams.

i think janessy called me at around two. was that a dream?

the painful realization that all has gone wrongLet's not wear any masks here. Let's drop the facade. I'm a wreck. I'm the kind of wreck you gawk at while you drive by it, really slow. The kind that makes you gasp and cover your mouth. I'm the worst kind of wreck. This is the kind of wreck that will forever change my life, and I'm not just trying to ( Read more... )

Here are some things I've written over the past few months.

( .the softest part of your flesh helps my body ingest sleep in the dead of the summer. )

I'm considering creating a myspace solely to post a musician's classified. I really want to find a band, man ( Read more... )

manta rays have the biggest brains of any fish in the sea. also, i knew that bull sharks could swim in fresh water, but i thought that they could only swim a few miles upstream into fresh water. in fact, they can swim over a thousand miles upstream! that's pretty amazing, and pretty scary. i think i saw a shark in my apartment complex' pool ( Read more... )