Comments | lifeasjuicy: It was 20 years ago today…11/11/85

lifeasjuicy

It was 20 years ago today…11/11/85

Nov 11, 2005 11:53

I am writing this on the 20th anniversary of my mother’s death. I was 16 and she was 36, and that math means that I am the same age as she was when she died. Tragically young, under tragic circumstances ( Read more... )

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dykeydoo November 12 2005, 14:19:56 UTC

I could only read the first third of this b/c it was so triggering with my mom being really sick and all but I think it's really amazing that you were brave enough to tell your story. Wow, I'm getting all choked up.

And yes, I'm sure your mom is very proud but no I cannot believe you are 36- not one bit.

lifeasjuicy November 12 2005, 20:59:03 UTC

Sweetie, sorry to hear about your mom. Wonder if I should warn before posting something so charged. Thanks for feeling me.

Oh, yes...36...I am amazed at what I see when I look closely in a mirror.

gordonzola November 12 2005, 19:06:23 UTC

Damn Jukie. I knew parts of that story but didn't know about the timing. I can honestly say this is the first thing I've ever read in four years of reading LJ that made me cry.

Thanks for sharing that with us.

xoxo

lifeasjuicy November 12 2005, 20:55:26 UTC

Gee, Gordon...didn't mean to make you cry. I guess it has become a story so much that it feels too distant to be real and of this lifetime. I feel deeply about issues surrounding loss and abandonment, but with this particular story, I almost feel like a reporter. Ah, dissasociation! Thank goodness for therapy. Thanks for bearing (baring?) witness.

fattest November 13 2005, 18:10:48 UTC

Wow, Jukie. Thanks for sharing such an intense story.

xoxo

Thank you! chaoticvenus November 15 2005, 22:21:10 UTC

For sharing..
I recently told my mother this when she told me her best friend was dying of cancer.
I said "Mom, he's getting promoted!" To which she answered, "what?" I replied "He being promoted to Guardian Angel, please congradulate him and be proud, cause he will be there for you when no one else can."
She really liked that. I hope you know that your Mom has always been there for you, even when no one else could be. She's your Angel and you are safe now.

xoxo

Angel

Oh Jukie kmeelyon November 19 2005, 12:25:54 UTC

What a story. It took me until today to finally get back here and read it. (Insomnia fairy has been visiiting again.) It's powerful to know one more piece of you and I also know what you mean about it just becoming part of the fabric of your life. But it's still quite intense to read.