My time's almost up. It's so sad. I talk to all of these people who don't have to go back until like Wednesday. Oh well. I can't change it, so I might as well not complain. Overall I had a great break. You know that you were happy when you think back to times and wish that you could replay them. Today was a massive work day. I got my school stuff ( Read more... )

It's another end of another year. How odd is that? It's so strange to think of everything that's happened to me this past year. The people I've met, things that I've said and done. God. I hope this year isn't bad. I hope that everything doesn't completely come apart, because there are way too many things that could right now. Finals are coming up ( Read more... )

I'm really sad tonight. He's gone again. I wish I could rewind a week or fast foreward a month. Make that a few months so school's out. I think it's almost worse this time. It's impossibly hard to say goodbye to someone that you know you won't get to talk to for a while. It literally breaks your heart. Things are so complicated now. I make them ( Read more... )

Another year gone. Christmas is over, or at least almost and I can't help but wonder where I'll be next year, who I'll be talking to, what I'll be doing. I stayed up so late last night. I talked to Cali for so long. I missed it. It made me feel like I had the summer back again. Chritstmas this year didn't really feel like Christmas. I had so much ( Read more... )

Today was perfect.... I don't know any other way to describe it. I'm in heaven right now, and I'm so afraid of losing it. How do you tell someone that you like them without them leaving you? Do you ever feel like things were just meant to be? I had this dream last night and there was this scorpion in it, and I was looking through stuff today and I ( Read more... )

I can't feel anymore. I'm lost in some dream that I don't want to wake up from. So I get this IM tonight. Yea it's weird talking to someone after so long, but it was completely wonderful. I think. I missed this person so much and now that he's back i don't know what to say. It's so confusing. You find people that you love and they never stay. In ( Read more... )

So I went to the debate tournament, and basically I don't know. I'm not very good at debate anymore, and I don't know why. It makes me really sad. I'm sad that tomorrow's Sunday. I can't wait until Christmas. I don't know why. I'm volunteering on the 25th at the community christmas dinner or whatever. I really wanted to do that this year. THE END

So I lost it. I told my art teacher that I was taking a break from art and basically quit. The ironic thing is that 2 days after I had made this decision I found myself drawing. For the first time in 3 months I picked up my sketch pad, gum eraser, and pencils and drew until my head hurt and I had completed this picture. I forgot how good it felt to ( Read more... )

I have to write today. It holds some meaning or significance that no one else knows or cares about, but oh well. I'm so tired right now. This whole week has been like a blur. I don't feel like I'm living my life anymore, or maybe I'm living it too fast? I don't really know anymore, if that's at all possible. People complain. I've noticed that a lot ( Read more... )

I always catch the same part of this movie. The end. It's so sad, but the words are so perfect. Maybe it's like an omen that November's coming up and I can find my sweet November. I wonder if I've found him already. Fridays and Saturdays are so great. I find myself within those two days. On Friday night I went to Quail Springs Mall and there's this ( Read more... )