Sometimes I think I'm certifiable.

[lifeinsong]

So... suddenly... I'm fine. It's all fine. Maybe it's because I have hormonal shifts to rival the Colorado River; maybe (and partly... I think), it's because I realized what in my situation has changed, and how that affects my approach. Namely, us not talking for days at a time has been the norm for the summer; so nothing in that respect has

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[werven_scy]

I just made a chocolate cake-the liquid was buttermilk, with an egg or two for binder. Do you have any restrictions on what you can use? Oh, and if you want to keep from eating it, cut it into slices, freeze it, and bag it in ziplocs. That way it's like a cakeypopsicle treat, and only for special occasions.

[lifeinsong]

well, this recipe is vegan, so no eggs for binders; this may be the problem, that there's the flour, and the coco, and the sweetener, and the liquid to make it moist and delicious, and the baking soda & vinegar to make it rise... but nothing to hold the bits together.

So what would be a good, non-egg binder?

And frozen cakey bits sounds so nice...

[werven_scy]

Well, i've seen yogurt, mashed banana, applesauce, pumpkin, or other pureed fruit or vegetables are good replacements for eggs in muffins or cakes. With chocolate cake, I guess I'd say mashed banana or applesauce. I don't know if it'll be perfect, though, since replacements are always less satisfying than the real thing. Why a vegan cake? Have you given up meat?

[lifeinsong]

i was thinking about banana or applesauce... i might try one of those next time around.
yeah, i've gone vegan again (... okay, this might be news to you, since the first times were at Salem before we hung out and at college for a year.)

[damienden]

2. I'd like to stop eating forever.
Okay, so I'm way behind and out of the loop, and if the answer is essentially rtfm, you can tell me that, but so far I haven't seen it, so.. Why?

[lifeinsong]

no worries; (And yeah, i just had to search for the meaning of "rtfm". ;) )

What I've observed is that when I'm exerting energy, being active, and am generally good with things, I eat significantly less. I think that this quantity is reflective of what my body Actually needs as fuel. For example, whenever I'm on a long-ish hike, I'm only eating maybe 2 or 3 cups of food, and hiking hard all day and loving it.

On the other hand, when I'm not active, and when I'm experiencing turmoil, I have the tendency/predisposition to eat as... emotional relief? So even tho I don't need the excess fuel, I'm trying to feed the hunger with what's on hand. And since the hunger isn't for anything edible, it's bottomless.

So I think that statement really signifies a dream of a more active life, where I'm eating just what I need, and not trying to deal with unhappiness by tamping down the upset in my gut with munchies.