how appropriate is it that i return here on new years eve?
it's just a coincidence.
actually, i've been here many times before, typing away, backspacing away, until the palette was empty once again
i have too many doubts and insecurities about what people think
this is what i've been worrying about
and it takes over who i am and everything i do
i'm still ( Read more... )

you don't even know how much i love the simple things people say and do ( Read more... )

my mind wanders too much out of reality
i'm falling into day dreams and memories. it's too easy
it's happening right now. my mind is racing
i can barely hold on to a thought. i can barely complete one
so much has happened in such a short time
i blink once and i'm here. in a new place, new worries and new problems
new people in my life
new happiness and ( Read more... )

this morning when i woke up, my mom and dad were in my bedroom and there were 18 roses in a vase on my table

i didn't feel like going to school today so i didn't go. when i went back to sleep i had a dream that nella, james, and christina came to my house late at night and brought me a cake with sparklers and they made the smoke alarm go off because ( Read more... )

sam, just say pass. because i think what you really want to do is just pass.
what is right or wrong in this case matters to you, but can be different for everyone.
thanks buddy for being so supportive. really. you're awesome.

i'm so sleepy, and creepy.
i had an anxiety attack last night. it was like before when i used to get them. i never used the medication the doctor gave me. i just didn't want to get better that way. it went away on its own and it's been so many years already, but it's back again like a bad dream. when i woke up this morning i felt really sick from ( Read more... )

can i have a single, white rose on my birthday
maybe a new spiral journal
someone to go with me to kariya park
with a green tea latte, some cheese cake
and lots of hugs and smiles
thanks.

and when i see you, i really see you upside down

random sputters:
i'm so sleepy, but i'm waiting for the oc to go on at 11
my cell phone has been dying so fast lately
i had a plethora of calls this morning, while i was in class
hopefully daniela will be at school tomorrow
aww, the song changed from a lack of color to be still my heart
my second playdium ( Read more... )

november begins. 
omgh! PRP! yesterday was the PlayRadioPlay! show. awkward encounters and getting our CDs signed and taking pictures. i hate my camera because it's half broken and doesn't work properly anymore.
but i really like this song <3 ( Read more... )

what i want more than anything, and i've always wanted this, is to feel security
i'm falling out of place and clinging onto whatever is still in reach
where do i fit in now? i fit in my family, and we need each other so much right now
i fit in my bed with my rosary and journal
i fit on the sidewalk on a cool autumn night with the dark blue sky and the ( Read more... )