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[lifeisacupcake]

reading my livejournal makes me nostalgic for times in my life when I used expressions like "it sucked monster monkey butt."

and it kills me to read what was important to me back then (james, for instance) and to know the amount of time I spent thinking about others' opinion versus mine.

and how much I admired herand how she didn't even know

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[anonymous]

it kills you to remember I was important to you? I'm sorry, I never wanted it to be that way. I hope you're doing well.

P.S. don't think I'm still reading your journal, I just decided to read it for nostalgic purposes as well. It's been the first time I've read this since ... well longer than I can possibly remember.

[lifeisacupcake]

yes, it kills me.
I'm doing wonderfully. we should talk.

hear you're doing well, too.
or at least, from what I can gather from little scraps of conversation around my house.
you're quite the hypocrite.

[anonymous]

yeah, well you should be glad to know I'm going through the hardest time of my life. The person I love and planned to spend the rest of my life with has left me and without a reason she can point to. I'm not perfect nor did I claim to be, I know I've messed up but I'm trying to do everything I can to do the right thing. I know you are still going to be upset with me and hold resent torwards me, it's your choice to do so. I'm very sincere though when I say I do hope you are doing well and everything is going ok for you.

[lifeisacupcake]

tell her if she's looking for a reason I'd be happy to direct her to dozens of them.

I was serious when I said we should talk.