but you were having people over...i didnt want to invite myself. i dont care it isnt your fault or anything. just, and overall feeling of tonight wasnt accepting, not just you. im better now. sorry to single you out if i did.
no, what I was saying you could have called to see if anybody had plans tonight, we didn't even know who were coming till the last minute, and people I didn't even know were coming came. Lucy called at like 7:30 and asked if I was doing anything and I asked her if she wanted to come over. It wasnt like hard-core afore made plans. Plus I had heard you we're hanging out with Hannah, so I didn't really call people, other than the ones who I had talked to after the game at DQ.
I'm sorry if I hurt you tonight. I didn't mean to. Coming home is obviously a pretty whirlwind experience for me, and it's hard to keep track of who's where. But I'm sure you don't want to hear excuses. What I'm about to say probably isn't what you want to hear either, but I'm gonna bite the bullet and say it anyways. Like Colby said, you could have called. I used to be afraid of the phone too. But then I realized all I was doing was wasting my time sitting around, alone, feeling sorry for myself. One day, I finally woke up and decided to take matters into my own hands. And now I have no problems calling people, because I'm confident enough to know that if someone's busy, it doesn't mean they wouldn't like to spend time with me. So you call someone else. But on most nights, people hang out in groups, and it's the more the merrier - but everyone has to basically invite themselves. No one sends out invitations - it's just not how it works. You just have to trust that people want you there - because they do. It
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its cool dont worry, im over it. this post was mellow-dramic. i knew that when i was writing it..but i still wrote it, now i feel the need to publically recognize that it was kind of...self pitying. haha. seriously you dont have to apologize, in fact, i should for making you guys feel guilty for somthing you didnt mean to do.
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I'm sorry if I hurt you tonight. I didn't mean to. Coming home is obviously a pretty whirlwind experience for me, and it's hard to keep track of who's where. But I'm sure you don't want to hear excuses. What I'm about to say probably isn't what you want to hear either, but I'm gonna bite the bullet and say it anyways. Like Colby said, you could have called. I used to be afraid of the phone too. But then I realized all I was doing was wasting my time sitting around, alone, feeling sorry for myself. One day, I finally woke up and decided to take matters into my own hands. And now I have no problems calling people, because I'm confident enough to know that if someone's busy, it doesn't mean they wouldn't like to spend time with me. So you call someone else. But on most nights, people hang out in groups, and it's the more the merrier - but everyone has to basically invite themselves. No one sends out invitations - it's just not how it works. You just have to trust that people want you there - because they do. It ( ... )
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