Me, I'm not - The Winchesters : 1991 - 1995
Title: The Winchesters : 1991-1995
Verse: Me, I'm not.
Author: Lifeisticking
Fandom: Supernatural
Pairing: None
Rating: Gen
Words: around 1500
Warnings: Character death (canon, off-screen)
Summary: Five years in the Winchester's life
Note : Some of John's POV, Dean's POV, and Sam's POV
Around the United States, nowhere in particular : 1991-1994
It goes like this for a while : Same pattern of saving people and hunting things, training Sam from time to time, but still making him focus on school (not that it’s difficult), and still tight with ‘’Dean’’ over everyone else; his son was actually starting to distance himself from him… There had been more plates rattling on their own when they had angry fights about mingling with other people, about mental health, where they yelled at each other before retreating and fuming on their own, Sam later coming reluctantly to apologize half-heartedly, probably prompted by ‘’Dean’’.
It’s crazy that he’s almost thinking of all this as normal - but after he had talked to Missouri about the plates rattling when his son was angry, she thinks he’s probably psychic. At least that explains a lot of oddities. He doesn’t know if that’s supposed to be reassuring - his son is crazy and he can make things move.
That doesn’t make him love Sam any less though.
Nobody else is officially aware that his son is crazy; Sam behaves most of the time, keeps it for when he’s alone. When he had dropped Sam for the summer at Pastor Jim’s or Bobby Singer’s, it had gone well and neither of them had had something to say. Sam seemed a little strained afterward, but mostly happy.
During the summer of 1993, when Sam is 10, they visit the Roadhouse, in Nebraska. Bobby Singer had directed him there so he could have some help on a dangerous hunt, and so he could leave Sam out of said hunt, where it would be safe. The man behind the counter, which he learns is William Harvelle, at first greets him suspiciously, while his wife (Ellen) arrives to grab an enthusiastic little girl (Joanna) who had been waving happily at Sam, happy to see another kid (while Sam couldn’t care less, apparently).
They introduce themselves, John telling some of his story, but not including Dean… and he had warned Sam about it in the car beforehand. Sam had glared at him but hadn’t said a word. The Harvelles are sympathetic, and William agrees to go on the hunt with him, while Ellen smiles and agrees to take care of Sam. John’s incredibly grateful to both of them, and they even lend him a room. They don’t get on the road straight away, as he and Sam are exhausted, and John is surprised at the number of hunters who congregate at the Roadhouse; he hadn’t known there was so many of them in a ‘’family business’’ or with tragic life stories leading them, like him, to this path.
Sam looks unhappy, probably because he can’t interact directly with Dean with so many people around, and when he snaps at Joanna, he forces him to apologize to the little girl. He apologizes for Sam’s behaviour, to which Ellen merely shakes her head and says that boys will be boys. He goes off to hunt the nest of vampire with William Harvelle the next morning. Ellen is a strong but caring woman, and he likes her immediately.
Meanwhile, Sam is uncomfortable in the Roadhouse; it’s not that he doesn’t like the Harvelles, he really wants to - they seem like nice people and Dean agrees, but the number of hunters here make him uneasy, and Dean as well. They always turn in early to sleep, so they can have some private time to talk and be themselves, even if Dean is almost constantly touching his brother during the day -but the thing is that Sam can’t return the gesture publicly.
It’s worse than at school. At least, at school he didn’t have to be this careful, it didn’t matter if the other kids and the teachers thought he was weird, but here? Even if Dad seems to have gotten over it, well, from what Dean told him, Dad is convinced that he’s crazy and hallucinating Dean. Anyway, it could signal Dean to the hunters, signal him to the hunters, and that would just be bad.
Dean doesn’t like Joanna Harvelle because she keeps hanging around Sam, new kid appeal and all that, and it’s probably because she’s younger than him that she likes to follow him around. Sam tries to be nice to her, as per orders, and also tries to placate Dean, who is still glaring at her every chance he gets - which is a lot.
It’s too much and Sam laughs at Dean, chastising him for his manners. He realizes his slip-up when Jo is looking at him with wide eyes filled with questions, because to her there’s just thin air and she hasn’t been hearing a running commentary about everything since they arrived. Sam quickly tells her it’s just a game of make-believe, and if she wants she can have an imaginary friend too. She scoffs and says imaginary friends are for babies, before leaving to go see her mom, probably.
‘’Well, that made her go away. I’m not complaining.’’ Dean is smirking, again. ‘’So, ladies’ man, where to? Shooting range in the backyard?’’ Not even waiting for his brother’s answer, Dean is already walking away.
‘’Shut up Dean.’’ Sam answers, for good form, stalking away after Dean.
His dad and Jo’s father come back a few days later with bruises and cracked bones, but the nest of vampires is exterminated, and all is well, the wounds treatable at the Roadhouse. William sweeps his daughter in his arm, glad to be back. Sam has a brief moment where he wonders why his dad doesn’t really do that and Dean comments that Dad used to do that to him.
Sam can’t wait to back on the road, ironically enough.
Nebraska, 1995 - Sam, age 12
It’s the last time they go to the Roadhouse, and William Harvelle is killed while helping Dad who tried to hunt for a lead about the yellow-eyed demon. Dad told him the whole story a few weeks ago, and he has to admit... he can’t say he agrees but... if someone took Dean away he’d be pissed, so he can understand his father’s views... at least a little.
Dad’s face is ashen when he comes back torn up, and alone. It’s mid-day so the place is deserted, and Ellen crumbles and cries. Jo doesn’t get it, she just asks where her dad is, why he didn’t come in straight up with Uncle John. Ellen tells her to go up to her room, then seems to realize he’s there too, and sends him up as well. Jo seems to realize something is wrong then and there, because her mom is crying.
Sam’s blank-faced and doesn’t contest, doesn’t say a thing, and just turn on his heels to go up, with Dean at his back. Dean entangles himself with him when they hit the bed and tells him that it’s okay. Apparently, that’s all Sam needed to start to cry. He liked Bill Harvelle too.
There’s yelling from downstairs, and he hears Ellen yell at his Dad that he has one day, and then he has to pack up and go away, and that’s it’s all his fault, him and his avenging crusade, that Bill is dead, that it’s even getting to his son, that he thinks she hasn’t heard Sam talk to thin air and why can’t he see that it’s John’s fault for not giving that boy a stable environment. John roars too but by then Sam has tuned everything out but Dean, and eventually falls asleep hearing his brother’s constant murmurs of reassurances.
They leave the next morning, Sam huddled in the backseat with Dean, John looking straight ahead and not saying a word. He always knew his dad thought he was crazy anyway, it’s nothing new. He just wasn’t careful enough with Ellen and now she knows too. And Dad’s stupid crusade just cost the life of a good man and he hates it.
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Verse: Me, I'm not.
Author: Lifeisticking
Fandom: Supernatural
Pairing: None
Rating: Gen
Words: around 1500
Warnings: Character death (canon, off-screen)
Summary: Five years in the Winchester's life
Note : Some of John's POV, Dean's POV, and Sam's POV
Around the United States, nowhere in particular : 1991-1994
It goes like this for a while : Same pattern of saving people and hunting things, training Sam from time to time, but still making him focus on school (not that it’s difficult), and still tight with ‘’Dean’’ over everyone else; his son was actually starting to distance himself from him… There had been more plates rattling on their own when they had angry fights about mingling with other people, about mental health, where they yelled at each other before retreating and fuming on their own, Sam later coming reluctantly to apologize half-heartedly, probably prompted by ‘’Dean’’.
It’s crazy that he’s almost thinking of all this as normal - but after he had talked to Missouri about the plates rattling when his son was angry, she thinks he’s probably psychic. At least that explains a lot of oddities. He doesn’t know if that’s supposed to be reassuring - his son is crazy and he can make things move.
That doesn’t make him love Sam any less though.
Nobody else is officially aware that his son is crazy; Sam behaves most of the time, keeps it for when he’s alone. When he had dropped Sam for the summer at Pastor Jim’s or Bobby Singer’s, it had gone well and neither of them had had something to say. Sam seemed a little strained afterward, but mostly happy.
During the summer of 1993, when Sam is 10, they visit the Roadhouse, in Nebraska. Bobby Singer had directed him there so he could have some help on a dangerous hunt, and so he could leave Sam out of said hunt, where it would be safe. The man behind the counter, which he learns is William Harvelle, at first greets him suspiciously, while his wife (Ellen) arrives to grab an enthusiastic little girl (Joanna) who had been waving happily at Sam, happy to see another kid (while Sam couldn’t care less, apparently).
They introduce themselves, John telling some of his story, but not including Dean… and he had warned Sam about it in the car beforehand. Sam had glared at him but hadn’t said a word. The Harvelles are sympathetic, and William agrees to go on the hunt with him, while Ellen smiles and agrees to take care of Sam. John’s incredibly grateful to both of them, and they even lend him a room. They don’t get on the road straight away, as he and Sam are exhausted, and John is surprised at the number of hunters who congregate at the Roadhouse; he hadn’t known there was so many of them in a ‘’family business’’ or with tragic life stories leading them, like him, to this path.
Sam looks unhappy, probably because he can’t interact directly with Dean with so many people around, and when he snaps at Joanna, he forces him to apologize to the little girl. He apologizes for Sam’s behaviour, to which Ellen merely shakes her head and says that boys will be boys. He goes off to hunt the nest of vampire with William Harvelle the next morning. Ellen is a strong but caring woman, and he likes her immediately.
Meanwhile, Sam is uncomfortable in the Roadhouse; it’s not that he doesn’t like the Harvelles, he really wants to - they seem like nice people and Dean agrees, but the number of hunters here make him uneasy, and Dean as well. They always turn in early to sleep, so they can have some private time to talk and be themselves, even if Dean is almost constantly touching his brother during the day -but the thing is that Sam can’t return the gesture publicly.
It’s worse than at school. At least, at school he didn’t have to be this careful, it didn’t matter if the other kids and the teachers thought he was weird, but here? Even if Dad seems to have gotten over it, well, from what Dean told him, Dad is convinced that he’s crazy and hallucinating Dean. Anyway, it could signal Dean to the hunters, signal him to the hunters, and that would just be bad.
Dean doesn’t like Joanna Harvelle because she keeps hanging around Sam, new kid appeal and all that, and it’s probably because she’s younger than him that she likes to follow him around. Sam tries to be nice to her, as per orders, and also tries to placate Dean, who is still glaring at her every chance he gets - which is a lot.
It’s too much and Sam laughs at Dean, chastising him for his manners. He realizes his slip-up when Jo is looking at him with wide eyes filled with questions, because to her there’s just thin air and she hasn’t been hearing a running commentary about everything since they arrived. Sam quickly tells her it’s just a game of make-believe, and if she wants she can have an imaginary friend too. She scoffs and says imaginary friends are for babies, before leaving to go see her mom, probably.
‘’Well, that made her go away. I’m not complaining.’’ Dean is smirking, again. ‘’So, ladies’ man, where to? Shooting range in the backyard?’’ Not even waiting for his brother’s answer, Dean is already walking away.
‘’Shut up Dean.’’ Sam answers, for good form, stalking away after Dean.
His dad and Jo’s father come back a few days later with bruises and cracked bones, but the nest of vampires is exterminated, and all is well, the wounds treatable at the Roadhouse. William sweeps his daughter in his arm, glad to be back. Sam has a brief moment where he wonders why his dad doesn’t really do that and Dean comments that Dad used to do that to him.
Sam can’t wait to back on the road, ironically enough.
Nebraska, 1995 - Sam, age 12
It’s the last time they go to the Roadhouse, and William Harvelle is killed while helping Dad who tried to hunt for a lead about the yellow-eyed demon. Dad told him the whole story a few weeks ago, and he has to admit... he can’t say he agrees but... if someone took Dean away he’d be pissed, so he can understand his father’s views... at least a little.
Dad’s face is ashen when he comes back torn up, and alone. It’s mid-day so the place is deserted, and Ellen crumbles and cries. Jo doesn’t get it, she just asks where her dad is, why he didn’t come in straight up with Uncle John. Ellen tells her to go up to her room, then seems to realize he’s there too, and sends him up as well. Jo seems to realize something is wrong then and there, because her mom is crying.
Sam’s blank-faced and doesn’t contest, doesn’t say a thing, and just turn on his heels to go up, with Dean at his back. Dean entangles himself with him when they hit the bed and tells him that it’s okay. Apparently, that’s all Sam needed to start to cry. He liked Bill Harvelle too.
There’s yelling from downstairs, and he hears Ellen yell at his Dad that he has one day, and then he has to pack up and go away, and that’s it’s all his fault, him and his avenging crusade, that Bill is dead, that it’s even getting to his son, that he thinks she hasn’t heard Sam talk to thin air and why can’t he see that it’s John’s fault for not giving that boy a stable environment. John roars too but by then Sam has tuned everything out but Dean, and eventually falls asleep hearing his brother’s constant murmurs of reassurances.
They leave the next morning, Sam huddled in the backseat with Dean, John looking straight ahead and not saying a word. He always knew his dad thought he was crazy anyway, it’s nothing new. He just wasn’t careful enough with Ellen and now she knows too. And Dad’s stupid crusade just cost the life of a good man and he hates it.
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