Yaya!! Job in the house.. I got a job today, ironically right across from my last two, haha, oh well. yeah I know. Hopefully it goes well, and I make some badly needed mula ( Read more... )

Dated 3-17-2000 ( Read more... )

First time I've done this on my own, I kept my cool.. phhhew it was hard but im proud of myself.. just thought I'd write it down.

I don't know but I've been thinking about this all day, is it healthy to say " Man, I need a beer," on a daily basis? Lately it seems as if alcohol has become a big part of my life and of those around me. It doesn't make any sense, in the past I guess we can say my "alcoholism" has never been that bad, maybe a couple of days out of the week but ( Read more... )

I spoke with Kris today, for those who don't know who that is, it's my ex-gf. I've noticed that it's getting easier to talk to her without feeling sad, we talked about how our day was going and if anything new and or interesting had happened since we last talked. We chatted for a little and wished each other a good rest of the day. It's kind of ( Read more... )

So today was a decent day, I got up 1 due to the fact I drank to much last night, yeah I know whats new..right? Picked up Erik from Prinny's, because well we all know that thats his second home now a days lol. Sat around bull-shited and hit the gym, It feels good hitting the gym up again, Im way to fat right now and am self consious about it so it' ( Read more... )

So it's about three thirty am, I wish I was tired..but of course I'm wide awake. I think my brain purposely works with my insomnia so it doesn't have to shut off. Whatever the case might be with my deranged mind, Im not tired so I guess I'll write. Tonight Erik and I went over to Prinnys'(Prinny short for Princess a.k.a Kim) and watched "Wolf Creek ( Read more... )

So the last couple of days, my mind has been bombarded with a million thoughts, just whizzing through my head. I started writing in a journal, I don't know why, just thought it might help if I expressed what I thought on paper. My very first entry started out about my day and what I did, normal dear diary bullshit, as I continued to write, ( Read more... )

Friendship has always been a weird thing for me. I've never ever been able to fully trust people, so it's hard when I meet people who truly care and love me, to automatically believe that they will always be there for me. Sometimes it feels better to be alone then to have any "possible regrets." Slowly I have been trying to mold myself into a ( Read more... )