I Think I Want My Mommy Again

[lifenxcess]

I definately want to start sucking my thumb and curl up in a fetal position. I guess I really shouldn't have spent so much time stressing about the boy because he just totally blew me off. I deserve this somehow. My pride is hurt more than my feelings. I really want to inform him that I never thought he was all that cute AND he has paunch! But

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[dingywhite]

ergh, that sucks.

you know what though, maybe you shouldnt just shrug this off. get mad. if he blew you off and it hurts you, be sad, be angry, be whatever, just fucking let it out.

youre going to miss this when youre older and can hardly remember passion of any sort.

[lifenxcess]

I've learned sad. I can do sad really, really well (after learning to cry again four years ago, I haven't been able to stop). Haven't quite gotten mad down yet. It all just comes out as tears. But I'm working really hard at learning to recognize and define my emotions and express them in the appropriate way. Couple more years of therapy and I might be able to feel like a normal person.

[mapman7]

you know, you could get paid to suck your thumb in a fetal position.

boys totally suck.