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I still will never understand why some of the dramakids choose to hate me.  I didn't ever really do anything.  Oh well life is life.  It's just the way it goes ( Read more... )

This week...this vacation...AMAZING.

Friday-lonnnng conversation, but a lot of change
Saturday- Saw Diary of Anne Frank, which was surprisingly very VERY good, much more than I expected.
Sunday-Church, and then I had a date.  I've never been on a date.  But I ahd a date :) My first date :).  however, I know what you're thinking...I set boundaries AND ( Read more... )

last night he said this: "its just hard for me to try to reach out when I know that any moment I might go to far and you might want space again, its as if you wanted to dissappear, or wanted me to disappear.  when I look at you, I'm afraid the same thing will happen again, I will do something to go to far, and you will go away again, im afraid of ( Read more... )

so, an update on life ( Read more... )

Here I am on the phone again and...
Awkward silence is on the other end
I used to know the sound of a smile in your voice
But right now all I feel
is the pain of the fighting starting up again

All the things you talk about you know they stay on my mind, on my mind
All the things we laugh about they'll bring us through it every time
after time, after time

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this is the first time I've ever felt OVERWHELMED from studying the bible.  I've been in my bible since 1:00, thats 4 1/2 hours, but I feel like I can't take another word, not necessarily in a bad way just overwhelmed ( Read more... )

Well I will walk by faith, even when I cannot see.
Because this broken road prepares your will for me.

You've been so amazing Jesus.  So faithful.

Your grace covers all I do.
Thank you, so much.  For your neverending mercy, and grace.
You never cease to astound me with your incredible mercy and love.

 so what do you do when someone you love and care about is in an abusive relationship.  And you know they are.  And they're being used for sex.

Today a good friend of mine, lets call her taffy experienced that exact thing.  I listened to her boyfriend, lets call him bobby, before school, call her a slut and say he was just using her for sex.  He ( Read more... )

His neverending mercy continues to come back for me.  But the thing is, it never left.  Where can I go to get away from him,  If I go to the highest mountains, he is here, or to the bottom of the ocean, he is there, or to the darkest cave, he is there.  I can't escape his grace.  I cannot make promises to God because I am human and a promise made  ( Read more... )