Comments | lifeshighways: I'm a loser

lifeshighways

I'm a loser

Oct 28, 2004 21:34

tonight i told someone something i should not have told them.... the thing is it was the truth and it was something that would have come out eventually but really it didnt need to come out by me when it did and i feel like total shit... i have a big mouth and someone should have just put a sock in my mouth ( Read more... )

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freeinbondage October 28 2004, 19:40:06 UTC

*HUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGSSSSSSSSSSSSSS* no need for the tears girly girl!! truth or not truth.....it came out......don't sweat it....you are still loved....its not being held against you so stop holding it against yourself and i mean it!!!

lifeshighways October 29 2004, 03:34:49 UTC

oh there's no "truth or not" to it, that was the exact words... the thing is, i just should not have been the one to say anything to anyone about it! i feel terrible and wish to goddess i'd just not made that call yesterday!

*****HHHHUUUUGGGGGSSSSS*****

freeinbondage October 29 2004, 05:09:53 UTC

ehhh don't sweat it...life will go on, it will continue, adjustments will be made and the healing will begin...

yodanshadancer October 28 2004, 21:10:26 UTC

I hate it when that happens! I hope everything is ok.

lifeshighways October 29 2004, 03:39:51 UTC

yeah everything's okay - i just have a big mouth.....

funny how things work out sometimes, im sure the universe had some reason to make me say what i said when i said it but she sure confuses me when she does that *LOL*

guess what Ericka was doing when i got home yesterday? nope, not watching TV, nope, not on the phone....... nope, not even homework.... she was practicing!!!!! and she showed me some "improv" stuff i was pretty impressed! she loves the idea of just letting the veil go..... and i think it looks really pretty to do it that way, but she said it keeps catching on her skirt......oh well it's still very pretty! and i was uber pleased that she was practicing...oh and when i showed her the check and the date for the 12th on it she was like why are you waiting so late to pay, i said because progress reports come out on the 12th and i wont waste the money if you're wasting my time *LOL* so she might get a little closer to the kind of grades we want this time.....

okay off to shower and get ready for work *hugs* talk to you

yodanshadancer October 29 2004, 12:30:33 UTC

I am so happy to hear that she is practicing. I like the idea of dropping the veil but it isn't going to work with that skirt of hers AND the music...

I especially like that she is practicing improv!!! She needs to get the choreography but if she plans to dance long-term -- and learn to -feel- the music, improv is really important.

It had to happen malkalv October 29 2004, 07:30:25 UTC

Hey, dont beat yourself up darlin. We know you are the sweetest thing and wouldnt hurt peoples feelings on purpose. If it was bound to happen, I know I would much rather hear something from you than from anyone else. It may not seem like it at that moment, but later they will realize that.

Re: It had to happen lifeshighways October 29 2004, 09:46:03 UTC

*hugs*
thank you baby, you sure made me smile!
Are we gonna see you out at Resurrection tonight?

petzilla October 29 2004, 07:45:09 UTC

ya know I feel exactly the same way and have been known on more than one occasion to to the exact same thing that you say that you did and I always feel like crap about it after cause it is done almost always perfectly innocently or as much as I can possibly pull. I've gotten to the point where I tell people and SataNicole will back me up on this to not tell me anything unless you want me to say it to someone else, no secrets, not nothing cause I will open my mouth and put my own boot in my mouth and not in the cool sexy sort of way...

lifeshighways October 29 2004, 09:51:05 UTC

yeah i remember asking you to keep a secret once and you said NO WAY - i can't do that! *LOL*

and i think it's okay now, but the thing people have to know about me, is my defense mechanisim is to make fun of the bad situation... so lets say, someone wrecks their car and is hurt very badly... i might joke w/them about not letting them drive my car, so that i dont cry or get all sappy.... they may not think its funny but im sure my blubbering tears would not be funny either *LOL*
anywho.. thanks!
see you this weekend... sometime!
lunch Sat????

roonie October 29 2004, 08:25:33 UTC

hey sweets, i hope things get better, try not to be too hard on yourself. i really have no idea what happened, alls i know is that i know you are a sweetie and wouldn't hurt anyone on purpose ever. take it easy hun!