i need to stop being a fuck up. im not cool and i need to realize the shit i do has a major effect on those who actually give a fuck about me. my decisions are fuckin stupid and im only fucking myself over noone else. i need to get my life together before it is too late im fucking young, there is no reason for me to throw it all away.

shit has been good ( Read more... )

i forgot how good 7L and esoteric is.
good shit.
FUCK WORK.........i quit.

work sucked.
rain today was nice.
said goodbye to alex.

time to sleep.
black flag covers.
i feel sick.

I want your skull ( Read more... )

I am pretty fed up with shit right now. I just want to sleep all day amd not do anything at all. still feeling like a failure at life and it doesnt help when I think that but, what can I do with all my bullshit. I feel alone and dead inside as usual.

I have no desire to see through my own eyes anymore.

I wish I was dead.
thank you for topping off the worst day.
I wish you knew how I feel.
Its easy for you, I am not attractive to the opposite sex.
you will not understand.
I can tell that I am slowly becoming the jaded, bitter, piece of shit I once was....

I cant help feeling like shit all of a sudden.
I need help.