life is still beautiful and amazing on january 1st, 2004, just not here

[liftedandgifted]

today not so good. I'm not even sure what to say. today is my mom's birthday. I wish today were a happy day. I wanted today to be wonderful for my mother. I want it to be fucking good, god dammit. I want to stop crying. my tears keep raining on the parade. I want my mother to have a better life than this. it's terrible. I don't know what to do with

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[nabilet]

dont run away from it. also, i understand you want the best for your mother but her efforts are more important than yours. so you should never even begin to consider blaming yourself. even if your mother somehow blames you. cmon, worry about the little things and the big things take care of themselves. worry about yourself man. try to be happy, you, as an individual. you should be happy. thats what you should strive for. and in turn, i guarantee youll see more sun in your day as will your mom. my two cents.

[you_i]

painkillers don't do anything for real tears and you know it and i know it and from last year we both know it.

>>my tears keep raining on the parade<<
you know that's why jenna and i want to get you to see somebody
(but that was very eloquent)
you love your mom
in her own way, she loves you. i'm sure of it.

do you know what that means?
that means things will work out.

brenna