I hate my brain. it makes me want to not live. seriously.

last night as I was going to bed, I had the door that leads out onto the little deck outside of my room open and I smelled a not so distant burning. it was like a fireplace but slightly wrong. I thought about a fire spreading from next door or something, but then convinced myself I was being really ocd and insane and not to worry about it. I slept ( Read more... )

it's 8:28pm. we're going to the mountains tomorrow. I need to study somewhere in arabia. but.. love. well,

well, somehow only eating a lean cuisine and a wendy's frosty all day, then drinking five cups of coffee and a starbucks peppermint mocha with one of my mom's celex is not a good combo. I just layed awake in bed for five and a half hours. I feel like I'm going to throw up/have heart attack. I tried to go to bed early last night too. okay, back to

tonight I gift carded ( Read more... )

is six cups of coffee a day too much?

after four, I can start to feel my heart beating through my chest. neat.

also, sometimes my watch makes my wrist hurt. it feels a weight, then overcompensates and strains itself..

from a tv commercial:

"don't risk laying on the floor for hours or even days..every senior needs life alert"

yikes.

I watched together tonight with my mom. it made me cry. and then I wanted to keep crying. it was really good. I dunno, something about it...I liked it a lot ( Read more... )

it took exactly a week but I hate it here again. I honestly didn't get any feelings of get me the fuck out of here until a few minutes ago. dammit dammit dammit ( Read more... )

my mom and guy left for the grandmother's for more fun family time and now I've the place to myself. jenna's jazz cd, nice and loud, some wine, and a christmas tree. it's very nice here right now. it could stand for a jenna or two, but otherwise it's perfect. I want to share this moment with someone and I know just who ( Read more... )