Why do you think there are so many depression meds advertised these days? I think the obvious first answer to that is because everyone is depressed...duh...thank you for your brilliance. But I think it's job dissatisfaction. I know I am kind of an extreme, but I believe my work should be a reflection of me and my passions in life. Even further, my ( Read more... )

Well it sure has been an interesting week. Lots of metaphors and emotions. Lots of evaluating. My last five years have come to a head this week, and after several intense hours of conversation I feel like in a weird way I really did cross that one lingering thing off my list. I feel like there is a period at the end of those five years ( Read more... )

well, it would be terrible to not write in LJ for a month after what I would consider a slightly psycho post ( Read more... )

They changed as my mood did. Things started off almost optimistic. I was just in a good mood when I woke up this morning. The cold did immediate damage. That and a shit flinging kind of day at my job. I will admit upon reflection (sorry fellas) that my bad day may rest heartily on hormones. Maybe it is the million bazillion thoughts that have gone ( Read more... )

A week without Adam was no big deal. Lonely at times but Heidi kept me good company. I suppose I anticipated that after spending so long working on the house that we would be spending time together ( Read more... )

A lot of checks on the list. But now that a lot of projects are finished...I realize all the things I've been shoving onto 2011's shoulders. It's already begun ( Read more... )

"And then the past recedes ( Read more... )

There's been a lot of dying, a lot of remembering, a lot of illness. A lot of reunion, a lot of talking, a lot of not talking. A lot of wondering, a lot of regrets, a lot of fearfulness and hoping. A lot of finding. A lot of losing. A lot of building, a lot of throwing away ( Read more... )

It should have been me ( Read more... )

I'm coming home to an empty house ( Read more... )