damn you Kel! Damnyou so much!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Yx_rb4BwYQ
only watch if you want to end up in a state. the Song is "Roses for the Dead" and the band Funeral for a Friend. and... oh god... I dunno why I have this on repeat constantly... but I do now.
Fuck... damn you.. yeah... YOU KNOW WHY!
I love you...
I love you way too much...
I'm slightly high on sugar and emotion now, so to anyone reading this... I wouldn't if I were you.
I knew I'd end up watching this over and over and over... and crying to the dammned thing... it's that scene where he's just a kid that gets me...
I don't know why.. it makes me think of Josh a little as well, I wonder if he's swinging and sliding and things now..
Oh god..
How short is life though... I'm scared.
I'm fucking scared... that I'm going to wait until April to get to you.. and that you won't be there by then.. because something will have happened... I don't want that. I want to be with you so dammned much.
I think also because I know... the things that I've been doing lately, the things that have been Happening.. if I didn't have you now... I have to wonder.. would that have been me..
I had my moments here already before I met you where I'd just lie down and want to cry but couldn't... or I'd start and I couldnt' stop.. I'm a person of too many extremes I think...
I'm either up in the clouds or down in the valley with no footholds. I can never stay still in the middle of that hill. I guess I've always been that way, but it's tempered when I'm with someone, because I calm myself down, bring myself up for them.
But what do I do now? I close my eyes, I can feel your head on my shoulder still..
Oh god. I'm going to shut up now. yes I am.
I love you.
Damn you. damn you so much... I LOVE YOU!
Reb.
only watch if you want to end up in a state. the Song is "Roses for the Dead" and the band Funeral for a Friend. and... oh god... I dunno why I have this on repeat constantly... but I do now.
Fuck... damn you.. yeah... YOU KNOW WHY!
I love you...
I love you way too much...
I'm slightly high on sugar and emotion now, so to anyone reading this... I wouldn't if I were you.
I knew I'd end up watching this over and over and over... and crying to the dammned thing... it's that scene where he's just a kid that gets me...
I don't know why.. it makes me think of Josh a little as well, I wonder if he's swinging and sliding and things now..
Oh god..
How short is life though... I'm scared.
I'm fucking scared... that I'm going to wait until April to get to you.. and that you won't be there by then.. because something will have happened... I don't want that. I want to be with you so dammned much.
I think also because I know... the things that I've been doing lately, the things that have been Happening.. if I didn't have you now... I have to wonder.. would that have been me..
I had my moments here already before I met you where I'd just lie down and want to cry but couldn't... or I'd start and I couldnt' stop.. I'm a person of too many extremes I think...
I'm either up in the clouds or down in the valley with no footholds. I can never stay still in the middle of that hill. I guess I've always been that way, but it's tempered when I'm with someone, because I calm myself down, bring myself up for them.
But what do I do now? I close my eyes, I can feel your head on my shoulder still..
Oh god. I'm going to shut up now. yes I am.
I love you.
Damn you. damn you so much... I LOVE YOU!
Reb.