Never again.
A list of ten things I am Soooo never doing again. Just because I can.
1. Eating dammned curry chicken slices from co-op. Seriously.. Never EVER again.
2. Throwing/dropping a cheapy ring onto the floor.
3. Spraying my cut fingers with cleaning agent (yeah I KNOW I've said that before *sighs*)
4.Staring at the box for the game Babyz (seriously... those big eyes and over enlarged features that are just SO NOT chibi? Yeah... freaky.)
5. Trying to draw Sephiroth (I'm sorry!!!! Please dont' slice me!)
6. Trying to draw period... (omg... just.. no.)
7. Eating lunch on a day Omi decides to cook roast duck (so.. full.)
8.installng/downloading random junk onto my laptop (ok.. I probably will *sighs*)
9. Introducing new games to mom (dammit I Wanna play my PS2!!!!!)
10. Au Pair. (yeah it's good fun... but sweet Jenova I am gonna be SO glad when April comes around. Yeah I'm gonna throw a party! ALL you LJers are invited! (idea stolen by someone else *weg*) ok so half of you won't be able to come.. but consider yourselves invited anyways! I wanna celebrate big time.)
Hee I like lists! don't you? you don't? Wow... oh well.. just as well it's My LJ then isn't it? *sweet smile* and now for randomness. Why? Because I can. Because I'm at home and being at home is cool but no ones online to talk to so I'm bored. Ok ok I tell a lie.. people ARE online but I can't talk to them because yeah I don't wanna end up hurting them and the mood I'm in right now? I could. So easily. weird moods are... fun.. spacey... and kinda scary. *shrugs*
My mood ring is all yellowy greeny.. I wonder what that's supposed to mean. (Apart from the fact the house isn't over hot that is!) Well it's pretty anyway. I likes prettiness.
I likes food, I likes friends, I likes pictures, I likes hmm.. oh! I likes my laptop!
I is no liking the BFG because it's freaky... *snickers* ok I do really.. but seriously, that's a kiddies programme??????????? *shakes head*
I no like missing my Kel! I hope you got a good early night sweetie! Hopefully see you online tomorrow or Tuesday!
I likes goverment worktrain because when I get back to England it's gonna help me find a new job, although I Might end up going back to the chippy (please Jenova don't let me put all that weight back on again! ok thankies!)
yeah... bored... but not able to talk to people. What a weird combination. well... I can't sing right now... it's nearly 10pm and next door has kiddies. Even if mom's b/f doesn't like next door and has christened the woman "The one who can't keep her legs shut" nope. Idon't know properly and I don't think I Want to.. she only has one kid! (I think)
It's kinda weird being home for a holiday. Everything keeps changing. I STILL dont' recall giving them permission to do that. sheesh! You'd think they'd have some consideration for people not at home wouldn't you???
I guess I wont' be deleting Sephiroth_lost's journal.. it's got too many memories that I wanna keep that I can't just save.. I can't go through it. Too hard *shrugs* but I won't be using it anymore either. That name has lost what it meant to me now.
Sephiroth Innocence Lost
Sephiroth innocence betrayed.
I was blind. I can see.
I still am blind though.
Yeah ok ok.. everyone keeps telling me this new name is "emo" or "goth" but seriously? I ASKED for help... I got one daft suggestion which no way was I gonna use, along the lines of Sephiroth being a certain someones bitch.. *laughs* it made me grin and laugh, but I couldnt' use it. And that was it.
People people... Reb has NO imagination when it comes to names.. that's how I became Sephiroth_Lost to start with! You don't like the new name? Give me some bloody ideas? Ok? Thank you:) Otherwise put up with it.
Light_vs_shadow... I wanted shadow_vs_light but it wasn't going to work. Already taken.
So I thought.. ok.. dark_vs_light nope. gone.
Light_vs_dark? Gone.
ok ok.. Light_vs_shadow. whee!!! At LAST after fifty thousand different attempted names.. I found something that wasn't taken.
so why did I change at all? Reasons that only I in my weird random world, in my own strange little planet of pluto, will ever truly know or understand. Don't ask me. You'll just think I'm weird. But I am. I LIKE being weird. Don't take my weirdness away from me! Thank YOU!
AIM name changed for the same reason.. and nnooo despite peoples thoughts.. the name is NOT supposed to be emo. Ok? I wanted something that made me think of Sephiroth, didn't have Sephiroth in the Title since I might sometimes want to use it for things other than RPing... and just felt right at the time. Again.. I was on my own people. Gives a break. Yer know?
I know I know.. I've been a fucking nightmare to put up with lately. I appologise to each and everyone of you. but this is the only time I'm gonna do it now. I'm through with appologies. Those that know me.. know that most of what I say is meant in pure tongue in cheek and isn't supposed to be upsetting or enraging.. or any of that other crap. It comes out that way sometimes. I've got no tact. I'm a spoiled little brat who clings for dear life to her friends.
Am I wrong? Probably. Do I care? Not anymore.
I've got my own problems. I agree they're not as bad or as dispairing as other peoples, but they are part of my life. I never promised any of you that I would be nice to you all the time, or that I would cover up how I was feeling constantly.
One of you... thought that meant I didn't care. She's gone. After informing me she didnt' want to talk to me anymore.. she inquired "didn't I want to talk to her about it?" *laughs* Maybe I'm being cruel bringing that up here. but seriously? WTF did she want from me? What am I meant to say to something like "I don't think I can talk to you anymore. It hurts too much and you're not trying."
Here's a clue... darling. If you're in away mode... I'm NOT going to pester you with random IMs. If you tell me "brb" I will wait as long as I am online for.. but I will not keep checking to "make sure you're back" nor.. will I randomly try to IM your name to see if you're invisible. If that means I'm not trying.. well.. I'm sorry. Wait. no I'm not. I'm not sorry that I couldn't change the essential person that I am just for you. I'm not sorry that you had to wait for me to IM YOU before you could give me this news. Nor am I sorry that I didn't go into extreme guilt trips because we'd fallen out before. I've defriended your name sweetie. I don't know why you've kept mine on friend when you've blocked me from AIM and MSN and you have quite clearly stated you no longer wish to talk to me again until "it suits you".
Another one... yeah.. she hurt me in a sense. But you know what? I left you. I got over it. you can't hurt me anymore either.. and the joke? You STILL haven't worked it out. Don't you get it? I don't wanna talk to you anymore. You've started messaging me again recently... work it out.. you're the one only getting one syllabic answers. *chuckles* I Don't care. I haven't got the energy to spare on people like you and her. Not anymore. I am only sorry that I spent so much of my time on you.
Another friend has become closer than ever, yeah.. you know who you are... you mean the world to me. And even though you probably won't read this darlin' I'm just glad I was there to help you through things when you needed it. We'll keep growing closer hm?
Wow.. this entry is turning out to be longer than I thought. Kinda embarressing. I talk too much.
Not that I'm going to stop... oh no my pretty little captive audience of 0 *grinz* This is too much fun. Plus I'm slightly hyper, slightly bored, and working my way out of dark mode. Deal.
*giggles* that's right my lil ones.. deal with it.. rebby/reba/rebeano (thanks Maric..) sephywaffles/sephypancakes is in a talkative mood.
To those of you who dont' think you've been mentioned. Don't think you mean any less to me ok? I'm sorry if I seem rather preoccupied. I'm trying to forget life. It's fun:) It means I don't gotta think about the things that are getting to me.
To those of you who Have been mentioned and think you mean less to me? Good:) oh and btw? yes I actually AM laughing and smiling while writing this. You see... now that it's no longer actually Bothering me what you think of me... I'm finding it funny that it ever did. I don't know why I let you get to me. Because all that talk of "I want to be friends again" and "we both forgive each other"? Yeah.. doesn't work if you then continue to bring up the past sins and the problems constantly as a way of trying to make the other feel bad.
Lets see.. long as I'm making long lists of rambling that no one will read what Else can I say?
I like pie. Sorry Kimmy! I stole your line!
2 year olds should only learn how to say the names of immediate family. without a doubt.
6 nearly 7 year olds should seriously learn that no means no.
As should 4 nearly 5 year olds..
Said 4 nearly 5 year old should Also learn that just because she gets a present before her sisters it does not mean that she should then get ANOTHER present when her sisters get theirs.. (although it is a good try I must admit.)
STILL looking for Iason stuff. boo!
Also looking for music only version of Ave Maria Schuberts version to practice with the music to.
Reading is fun.
Reading is MORE fun when you're supposed to be doign something else (like housework)
Typos are also fun.
Typos are even MORE fun when they make you write dodgy sentances out of purely innocent meaning ones.
wow.. this is becomming a REALLY long post.
Long posts are fun provided you don't expect people to comment *snickers*
People commenting is fun provided they dont' comment on the one post you didn't expect them to read!
Being snarky is fun.
Capturing said snarky people and forcing them to back down is EXCELLENT fun!
OC's and NPCs are fun!!!!
Checking the theorsaurus (and dictionary) is fun!
Stating above activities is fun while evidentally not doing them is also fun!
Forcing people to read through inane babble like this to try and see the serious stuff is hilarious! :D
not giving any serious stuff where people think there should be... is just amusement waiting to happen.
Giving serious stuff but not the serious stuff THEY wanted... well now.. THAT is priceless:)
Having a headache through getting Too hyper... is NOT fun.
I'm gonna sign off now.
Love you all!
Reb!
1. Eating dammned curry chicken slices from co-op. Seriously.. Never EVER again.
2. Throwing/dropping a cheapy ring onto the floor.
3. Spraying my cut fingers with cleaning agent (yeah I KNOW I've said that before *sighs*)
4.Staring at the box for the game Babyz (seriously... those big eyes and over enlarged features that are just SO NOT chibi? Yeah... freaky.)
5. Trying to draw Sephiroth (I'm sorry!!!! Please dont' slice me!)
6. Trying to draw period... (omg... just.. no.)
7. Eating lunch on a day Omi decides to cook roast duck (so.. full.)
8.installng/downloading random junk onto my laptop (ok.. I probably will *sighs*)
9. Introducing new games to mom (dammit I Wanna play my PS2!!!!!)
10. Au Pair. (yeah it's good fun... but sweet Jenova I am gonna be SO glad when April comes around. Yeah I'm gonna throw a party! ALL you LJers are invited! (idea stolen by someone else *weg*) ok so half of you won't be able to come.. but consider yourselves invited anyways! I wanna celebrate big time.)
Hee I like lists! don't you? you don't? Wow... oh well.. just as well it's My LJ then isn't it? *sweet smile* and now for randomness. Why? Because I can. Because I'm at home and being at home is cool but no ones online to talk to so I'm bored. Ok ok I tell a lie.. people ARE online but I can't talk to them because yeah I don't wanna end up hurting them and the mood I'm in right now? I could. So easily. weird moods are... fun.. spacey... and kinda scary. *shrugs*
My mood ring is all yellowy greeny.. I wonder what that's supposed to mean. (Apart from the fact the house isn't over hot that is!) Well it's pretty anyway. I likes prettiness.
I likes food, I likes friends, I likes pictures, I likes hmm.. oh! I likes my laptop!
I is no liking the BFG because it's freaky... *snickers* ok I do really.. but seriously, that's a kiddies programme??????????? *shakes head*
I no like missing my Kel! I hope you got a good early night sweetie! Hopefully see you online tomorrow or Tuesday!
I likes goverment worktrain because when I get back to England it's gonna help me find a new job, although I Might end up going back to the chippy (please Jenova don't let me put all that weight back on again! ok thankies!)
yeah... bored... but not able to talk to people. What a weird combination. well... I can't sing right now... it's nearly 10pm and next door has kiddies. Even if mom's b/f doesn't like next door and has christened the woman "The one who can't keep her legs shut" nope. Idon't know properly and I don't think I Want to.. she only has one kid! (I think)
It's kinda weird being home for a holiday. Everything keeps changing. I STILL dont' recall giving them permission to do that. sheesh! You'd think they'd have some consideration for people not at home wouldn't you???
I guess I wont' be deleting Sephiroth_lost's journal.. it's got too many memories that I wanna keep that I can't just save.. I can't go through it. Too hard *shrugs* but I won't be using it anymore either. That name has lost what it meant to me now.
Sephiroth Innocence Lost
Sephiroth innocence betrayed.
I was blind. I can see.
I still am blind though.
Yeah ok ok.. everyone keeps telling me this new name is "emo" or "goth" but seriously? I ASKED for help... I got one daft suggestion which no way was I gonna use, along the lines of Sephiroth being a certain someones bitch.. *laughs* it made me grin and laugh, but I couldnt' use it. And that was it.
People people... Reb has NO imagination when it comes to names.. that's how I became Sephiroth_Lost to start with! You don't like the new name? Give me some bloody ideas? Ok? Thank you:) Otherwise put up with it.
Light_vs_shadow... I wanted shadow_vs_light but it wasn't going to work. Already taken.
So I thought.. ok.. dark_vs_light nope. gone.
Light_vs_dark? Gone.
ok ok.. Light_vs_shadow. whee!!! At LAST after fifty thousand different attempted names.. I found something that wasn't taken.
so why did I change at all? Reasons that only I in my weird random world, in my own strange little planet of pluto, will ever truly know or understand. Don't ask me. You'll just think I'm weird. But I am. I LIKE being weird. Don't take my weirdness away from me! Thank YOU!
AIM name changed for the same reason.. and nnooo despite peoples thoughts.. the name is NOT supposed to be emo. Ok? I wanted something that made me think of Sephiroth, didn't have Sephiroth in the Title since I might sometimes want to use it for things other than RPing... and just felt right at the time. Again.. I was on my own people. Gives a break. Yer know?
I know I know.. I've been a fucking nightmare to put up with lately. I appologise to each and everyone of you. but this is the only time I'm gonna do it now. I'm through with appologies. Those that know me.. know that most of what I say is meant in pure tongue in cheek and isn't supposed to be upsetting or enraging.. or any of that other crap. It comes out that way sometimes. I've got no tact. I'm a spoiled little brat who clings for dear life to her friends.
Am I wrong? Probably. Do I care? Not anymore.
I've got my own problems. I agree they're not as bad or as dispairing as other peoples, but they are part of my life. I never promised any of you that I would be nice to you all the time, or that I would cover up how I was feeling constantly.
One of you... thought that meant I didn't care. She's gone. After informing me she didnt' want to talk to me anymore.. she inquired "didn't I want to talk to her about it?" *laughs* Maybe I'm being cruel bringing that up here. but seriously? WTF did she want from me? What am I meant to say to something like "I don't think I can talk to you anymore. It hurts too much and you're not trying."
Here's a clue... darling. If you're in away mode... I'm NOT going to pester you with random IMs. If you tell me "brb" I will wait as long as I am online for.. but I will not keep checking to "make sure you're back" nor.. will I randomly try to IM your name to see if you're invisible. If that means I'm not trying.. well.. I'm sorry. Wait. no I'm not. I'm not sorry that I couldn't change the essential person that I am just for you. I'm not sorry that you had to wait for me to IM YOU before you could give me this news. Nor am I sorry that I didn't go into extreme guilt trips because we'd fallen out before. I've defriended your name sweetie. I don't know why you've kept mine on friend when you've blocked me from AIM and MSN and you have quite clearly stated you no longer wish to talk to me again until "it suits you".
Another one... yeah.. she hurt me in a sense. But you know what? I left you. I got over it. you can't hurt me anymore either.. and the joke? You STILL haven't worked it out. Don't you get it? I don't wanna talk to you anymore. You've started messaging me again recently... work it out.. you're the one only getting one syllabic answers. *chuckles* I Don't care. I haven't got the energy to spare on people like you and her. Not anymore. I am only sorry that I spent so much of my time on you.
Another friend has become closer than ever, yeah.. you know who you are... you mean the world to me. And even though you probably won't read this darlin' I'm just glad I was there to help you through things when you needed it. We'll keep growing closer hm?
Wow.. this entry is turning out to be longer than I thought. Kinda embarressing. I talk too much.
Not that I'm going to stop... oh no my pretty little captive audience of 0 *grinz* This is too much fun. Plus I'm slightly hyper, slightly bored, and working my way out of dark mode. Deal.
*giggles* that's right my lil ones.. deal with it.. rebby/reba/rebeano (thanks Maric..) sephywaffles/sephypancakes is in a talkative mood.
To those of you who dont' think you've been mentioned. Don't think you mean any less to me ok? I'm sorry if I seem rather preoccupied. I'm trying to forget life. It's fun:) It means I don't gotta think about the things that are getting to me.
To those of you who Have been mentioned and think you mean less to me? Good:) oh and btw? yes I actually AM laughing and smiling while writing this. You see... now that it's no longer actually Bothering me what you think of me... I'm finding it funny that it ever did. I don't know why I let you get to me. Because all that talk of "I want to be friends again" and "we both forgive each other"? Yeah.. doesn't work if you then continue to bring up the past sins and the problems constantly as a way of trying to make the other feel bad.
Lets see.. long as I'm making long lists of rambling that no one will read what Else can I say?
I like pie. Sorry Kimmy! I stole your line!
2 year olds should only learn how to say the names of immediate family. without a doubt.
6 nearly 7 year olds should seriously learn that no means no.
As should 4 nearly 5 year olds..
Said 4 nearly 5 year old should Also learn that just because she gets a present before her sisters it does not mean that she should then get ANOTHER present when her sisters get theirs.. (although it is a good try I must admit.)
STILL looking for Iason stuff. boo!
Also looking for music only version of Ave Maria Schuberts version to practice with the music to.
Reading is fun.
Reading is MORE fun when you're supposed to be doign something else (like housework)
Typos are also fun.
Typos are even MORE fun when they make you write dodgy sentances out of purely innocent meaning ones.
wow.. this is becomming a REALLY long post.
Long posts are fun provided you don't expect people to comment *snickers*
People commenting is fun provided they dont' comment on the one post you didn't expect them to read!
Being snarky is fun.
Capturing said snarky people and forcing them to back down is EXCELLENT fun!
OC's and NPCs are fun!!!!
Checking the theorsaurus (and dictionary) is fun!
Stating above activities is fun while evidentally not doing them is also fun!
Forcing people to read through inane babble like this to try and see the serious stuff is hilarious! :D
not giving any serious stuff where people think there should be... is just amusement waiting to happen.
Giving serious stuff but not the serious stuff THEY wanted... well now.. THAT is priceless:)
Having a headache through getting Too hyper... is NOT fun.
I'm gonna sign off now.
Love you all!
Reb!