on decisions
After a long heart bearing conversation, a twice as long life discussion with Rachel who was one of the first of my "keepers" (the people who've been deemed necessities to my survival, shes on year 9, WOW), and a short panicked discussion about how I'm fucked with James I've come to a few decisions, and reactions:
1. Chicago be damned. Its a beautiful plan HOWEVER its been deemed a dream more than a legit plan. Not because of my inability to go there and park, but because I plan on going there and parking.
2. Resume will go all across the US. reaction: I've edited and updated my resume, and sent it to Gion, Jay, and Linn for responses on its effectiveness.
3. Cincinnati be damned. Though I have legit complaints that A.its a tiny town taking up a lot of space with a small town mentality, B.I've made a few bad ties, and C.every day I spend there is considered a step into the fires of failure by my father and in reponse me, I still cannot afford to IGNORE job postings ANYWHERE. period.
4. That being said if I end up in Cincinnati at all I MAY NOT move in with my parents excepting release from jail or mental/physical health facilities that require me to do so by some sort of law.
5. I firmly believe that its time to make the best use of EVERY day and stop wasting time.
6. Resumes must go to ships. I can bail after 4 months if its that bad.
7. I am allowed to go a little nuts and install skype on every one of my friends computers, email incessantly if they dont sign on, and buy a lot of internet time if I take a ship job.
8. As soon as 30 days is up I MUST restock my supply of T and needles to ensure that I wont run out ever.
9. Another therapist is in my future for safe keeping and reasonable argument over life decisions.
10. I must admit to myself that I am a potential free wanderer as of May 11th and must also prepare to follow the jobs, not make the jobs follow me.
11. I come first.
12. I am now officially on the Chicago summer 2008 diet plan. Necessities only. This does however include ice cream once a month.
On number 12: I managed to go grocery shopping and spent 11.16 of my 20 dollars left in my bank account.. very effectively.
-12 eggs
-18oz of coldcuts
-1 loaf bread
-1/2 gal milk
-1/2 gal green tea for my acid stomach
-10 packs of oatmeal
add that to my cabinet:
-loaf of frozen garlic bread
-1 frozen pork chop
-2lbs frozen ground beef
-8 slices of cheese
-1/3 loaf wheat bread
-Peanut butter
-grape jelly
-1 can soup
-1 bag rice
-blueberry pancake mix, enough for 1 months breakfasts
-1/2 can soup leftovers
-leftover rice/lentils
-3 boxes mac and cheese
-1 packet of tuna
-can of carrots
-can of chick peas( maybe )
-some frozen hash browns and potato pancakes
I feel like I'm not gunna die!
1. Chicago be damned. Its a beautiful plan HOWEVER its been deemed a dream more than a legit plan. Not because of my inability to go there and park, but because I plan on going there and parking.
2. Resume will go all across the US. reaction: I've edited and updated my resume, and sent it to Gion, Jay, and Linn for responses on its effectiveness.
3. Cincinnati be damned. Though I have legit complaints that A.its a tiny town taking up a lot of space with a small town mentality, B.I've made a few bad ties, and C.every day I spend there is considered a step into the fires of failure by my father and in reponse me, I still cannot afford to IGNORE job postings ANYWHERE. period.
4. That being said if I end up in Cincinnati at all I MAY NOT move in with my parents excepting release from jail or mental/physical health facilities that require me to do so by some sort of law.
5. I firmly believe that its time to make the best use of EVERY day and stop wasting time.
6. Resumes must go to ships. I can bail after 4 months if its that bad.
7. I am allowed to go a little nuts and install skype on every one of my friends computers, email incessantly if they dont sign on, and buy a lot of internet time if I take a ship job.
8. As soon as 30 days is up I MUST restock my supply of T and needles to ensure that I wont run out ever.
9. Another therapist is in my future for safe keeping and reasonable argument over life decisions.
10. I must admit to myself that I am a potential free wanderer as of May 11th and must also prepare to follow the jobs, not make the jobs follow me.
11. I come first.
12. I am now officially on the Chicago summer 2008 diet plan. Necessities only. This does however include ice cream once a month.
On number 12: I managed to go grocery shopping and spent 11.16 of my 20 dollars left in my bank account.. very effectively.
-12 eggs
-18oz of coldcuts
-1 loaf bread
-1/2 gal milk
-1/2 gal green tea for my acid stomach
-10 packs of oatmeal
add that to my cabinet:
-loaf of frozen garlic bread
-1 frozen pork chop
-2lbs frozen ground beef
-8 slices of cheese
-1/3 loaf wheat bread
-Peanut butter
-grape jelly
-1 can soup
-1 bag rice
-blueberry pancake mix, enough for 1 months breakfasts
-1/2 can soup leftovers
-leftover rice/lentils
-3 boxes mac and cheese
-1 packet of tuna
-can of carrots
-can of chick peas( maybe )
-some frozen hash browns and potato pancakes
I feel like I'm not gunna die!