I've got fail!

[lightfixer]

needless drama, check.
unhappy with (first iteration of) project, Check.
maybe found what I've always wanted and then maybe fucked it up with needless drama, check.
broke up with girlfriend, check.

Maybe I can start over a bit in a while... right now I don't have anything left.

sigh.

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Thanks all.

[lightfixer]

I really appreciate all the hugs and such but for now I need to let my head sort out and see how the various things settle. Maybe there is still hope and I wont be judged too much on the past few months.

I just wish I hadn't had so much happening at once.
This has definitely been the most stressful time in my life and my ability to deal with social things properly and communicate in the last two months was nil yet I tried anyway. Now I fear a few important people think I'm not together and I've pushed them away.

Re: Thanks all.

[clara_girl]

good luck, good luck, GOOD LUCK. know that i think you rock, and are an awesome person, and wonderful friend. hugs if'n you want 'em, and see where you are after the dust (proverbial and otherwise) settles.

if nothing else, iscari0t is right: there is always bourbon. use it wisely. ;)

Re: Thanks all.

[haptotrope]

I don't think the dust is proverbial. :-PP

Anyway, if its useful, come out to visit Clara and I and I hear there are some mountains out here worth climbing -- maybe there is guru at the top -- maybe not. But I'm new here.

[pseydtonne]

You've made it through worse, and on television. You'll make it through this. Let me know the moment you need me.

You're always worth the time. you've been good to me. You've never been a dick to me, at all.

Kibo says hi, too. He's been cooking delicious things a lot.

[minerva42]

There's a magnet on the fridge here that reads "when you're going through hell, keep going." *hugs*

[ratushebarl]

Oh, Sean. You will never be all made of fail because of your adamantium core of win. It is completely normal to crash hard after a priority-mangling project such as the one you've just done. And to make personal-life mistakes during it. Art is hell. Totally rest and sort.

[catling]

*hug hug hug* If having a very cute and funny preschooler show you all of her favorite toys, draw with you or take you to the playground all while sharing her hilariously random insights about the universe would cheer you up, let me know, K and I are here.

let's go on a date

[potentialtoburn]

my treat, but you have to be "the girl".

Re: let's go on a date

[lightfixer]

I will take you up on your offer.

No sex on the first date, though. ;)