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I really want to try to get back into the habit of using this thing, because I have pretty much nobody to talk to here but there are times when I really just want to talk about myself, which sounds lame and stupid but is utterly true, and one day I'm just going to snap and start screaming everything I've never said and it'll be ugly.
So.
Am I seriously incompetent, or is there just no good, believable way of telling someone that they're smart and funny and kind and perfect and there is no way I can ever possibly see myself falling in love with them? Because I don't think playing Vertical Horizon songs at people is an acceptable form of communication, and the only other way I've tried blew up spectacularly in my face.
I'm actually weirdly okay with the idea of pretty much never talking to him again, which is probably another sign that I'm emotionally stunted somehow, but I'm guessing he isn't. I'm just - I'm terrible at making friends with people in college, because it requires so much effort when they aren't in your classes. I would do anything for the people who are already my friends, but they're miles and miles away and half of them I'll probably never see again because I'm hopelessly terrible at keeping up with people, and sometimes I imagine that I'll end up pulling a sort of not-quite-Superman, jumping in to help out whenever they call me and ask, and spending the rest of my time in my Fortress of Solitude.
Which, by the way, Amanda and Cari and Meredith and everybody, if you read this, my love has never faltered! You are chock full of awesome! See above re: sucking at keeping up with people whom I totally adore.
And now I have to do at least a little of the mountain of work that is staring me in the face and taunting me. But I'm sticking around this time. I will post again! You know, probably.
So.
Am I seriously incompetent, or is there just no good, believable way of telling someone that they're smart and funny and kind and perfect and there is no way I can ever possibly see myself falling in love with them? Because I don't think playing Vertical Horizon songs at people is an acceptable form of communication, and the only other way I've tried blew up spectacularly in my face.
I'm actually weirdly okay with the idea of pretty much never talking to him again, which is probably another sign that I'm emotionally stunted somehow, but I'm guessing he isn't. I'm just - I'm terrible at making friends with people in college, because it requires so much effort when they aren't in your classes. I would do anything for the people who are already my friends, but they're miles and miles away and half of them I'll probably never see again because I'm hopelessly terrible at keeping up with people, and sometimes I imagine that I'll end up pulling a sort of not-quite-Superman, jumping in to help out whenever they call me and ask, and spending the rest of my time in my Fortress of Solitude.
Which, by the way, Amanda and Cari and Meredith and everybody, if you read this, my love has never faltered! You are chock full of awesome! See above re: sucking at keeping up with people whom I totally adore.
And now I have to do at least a little of the mountain of work that is staring me in the face and taunting me. But I'm sticking around this time. I will post again! You know, probably.