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It started when we were younger you were mine (you were mine)(my boo) Now another brother's taken over but it’s still in you’re eyes (my boo)(you and i) Even though we use to argue it’s all right (my boo)(it's all right, it's ok) I know we haven’t seen each other in a while But you will always be my boo
The next time I saw Zac was New Year’s I had gone back to Tulsa 3 days after Christmas. Zac picked me up at the airport on the 29th. When I got home the first thing I did was sleep. I slept until 5 pm on the 30th. Zac came over for dinner and made me my favorite meal. Spaghetti it was really good too. After that he had rented a movie for us to watch. It was The Santa Clause which is one of my favorite Christmas movies. We started watching it at about 7 and I fell asleep before it was over. I woke up in the middle of the night in my bed. I didn't remember walking upstairs so Zac must have carried me. I rolled over and saw that he wasn't in my bed with me so I got up and walked down the hall I opened the door to Zac's room. He wasn't sleeping on the futon. I walked downstairs to see if he was on the couch. He wasn't sleeping on the couch either. I checked a clock in the living room and it was only 10 pm which meant that Zac probably wasn't even sleeping. I walked out into the garage to see if he was drawing out there and he wasn't in there. There was only one other place where I thought he could be I walked back into the kitchen and out the sliding glass door I had put on my boots and wrapped my blanket around my shoulders. I climbed up the ladder into the tree house.
"Hey" I said as I poked my head through the trap door "aren't you cold?"
"No not really" Zac said getting up to help me as I stood up he pulled me into a hug
"So why are you up here at 10pm in December?"
"Because you were asleep and I'm not tired"
"So you come sit out in the cold to do what exactly?"
"Just think"
"About what" I asked as he sat down in the bean bag chair
"Just stuff"
"Oh I see" I said sitting on his lap and wrapping my arms around his neck. He pulled the heating blanket around us and I laid my head on his shoulder "you know what?"
"What?"
"I love this"
"Oh really"
"Yeah" I said leaning in to kiss him "I love you"
"I love you too" he said holding me tighter "what do you love about this?"
"Being with you" I said closing my eyes and putting my head back down on his shoulder "and you holding me like you never want to let go and you"
"I love you too" Zac kissed me gently on my forehead as I dozed off to sleep. I woke back up a few hours later because I was cold. The heating blanket shut off after one hour and you had to turn it back on. Zac was laying there asleep. I hated to wake him up because he probably only fell asleep about an hour ago.
"Zac" I whispered he didn’t even move. I leaned over and kissed him on the cheek. He moved slightly "Zac" I said a little bit louder than before
"Hmm" was the only response I got
"I'm cold and I want to go back to sleep but I don’t want you out here by yourself all night"
"Okay" He said with his eyes closed
"I'm getting up now" I said before standing up and pulling the blankets off of him
"Okay I'm up" I laughed a little bit. We climbed down out of the tree house and ran inside I stopped at the bottom of the stairs to wait for Zac. I heard him walk up behind me and then he slipped his arms around me and picked me up
"What are you doing?"
"Carrying you"
"I can walk you know"
"I know"
"Okay just making sure" I said laughing when we got to the top of the stairs Zac put me down and slipped his arm around my waist and walked into my room with me. I climbed into bed and pulled the blankets around me really tight and Zac tucked me in
"Night I love you" He said leaning over and kissing me. I stuck out my bottom lip
"You aren't going to stay in here with me?"
"Well i suppose I could" I scooted over and he climbed in next to me. I laid my head on his chest and he ran his fingers through my hair I fell asleep in a matter of minutes. I woke up the next morning and the first thing I saw was Zac's face within seconds of opening my eyes Zac's eyes opened "Hey beautiful" I leaned closer to him and kissed him
"What are you doing today?"
"Spending the day with my family and then taking you out tonight"
"I don’t know I'm really tired I was just planning on watching the ball drop here"
"Well I have something planned so will you please go?" Zac said giving me the puppy dog eyes which he knew I couldn't resist
"I guess"
"thank you" We laid in bed just watching each other for a little while I was just about to fall back to sleep when the phone rang "go back to sleep I'll get it" I heard Zac walk over to the phone as I was dozing off the jet lag was really bad this time. Before I fell back to sleep I heard Zac say "I'll be sure to tell her" when I woke up again Zac was sitting up next to me and running his fingers through my hair. I glanced at the clock it was 11
"Zac what are you still doing here I thought you were spending time with your family"
"I didn't want to leave until you woke up"
"Okay why don’t you go spend time with your family they don’t see you enough"
"Okay"
"I love you" I said before hugging and kissing Zac
" I love you too" he said giving me a quick kiss before he left/ I laid in bed a little longer before I finally got up. I took a shower and threw on some sweat pants and one of Zac's old tee-shirts. I had lunch and watched a movie while I was waiting for Zac to call. He called a few hours later
"Hello" I said picking up the phone
"Hey"
"What’s going on tonight?"
"Um I'm going to pick you up around 7 then were going to dinner then we are going somewhere else but that is a surprise"
"Okay what should I wear?"
"Umm a dress like the ones you always wore for homecoming"
"Okay who was on the phone earlier"
"Could I tell you later because Zoë wants me to play with her"
"Okay I'll see you a little before 7, bye"
"Bye love you"
"Love you too" After we hung up I looked at the clock. I only had 3 1/2 hours before Zac would be there. I ran up to my room and began to search through my closet for a dress. The only one I could find was the one I wore to senior homecoming. I took it off the hanger and tried it on. It still fit even though it had been 2 years. I laid it on my bed and continued my search except this time it was for the shoes that went with the dress. After I found them I pulled my favorite hoop earrings out of my jewelry box followed by the necklace Zac had bought me for my 16th birthday. After I had everything laid out I went and took another shower so I could curl my hair. When I got out of the shower it was 4:30. I curled my hair into lose waves and then I put my sweatpants back and a zip up hoodie on. I ran downstairs to get something to eat and to do my nails. I painted my toe nails a light pink and my finger nails were clear with white tips resembling a French manicure. When my nails had finished drying i laid down on my bed and watched TV for a little while. At 6 o clock I went into my bathroom to put on my make up its was 60 when I finished my make up I went back into my room and put on my dress being careful not to mess up my curls. The dress still fit perfectly. It went to just above my knees it was red and had spaghetti straps. The shoes were the same color red. I slipped them on. I put in my hoop earrings which were just silver hoops with small flowers on them. Then I put on my necklace. It was not along necklace but it wasn't a choker either. It was a silver chain and it had a silver hear pendant. The heart had small red stones lining the outside of it. After I had adjusted the clasp to make sure it would stay on I took a look in the mirror I couldn't believe it I looked like I had for my senior homecoming just 2 years older. I found my black clutch and put my lip gloss and a few other things in it and took one last glance in the mirror before I headed downstairs to wait for Zac. I wrote a note and stuck it on the front door it simply said 'come find me' after that I went to the first place I knew he would look. The Tree house. I climbed up the ladder very carefully in my high heels and I managed not to fall. After a few minutes of sitting there under the heating blanket I heard Zac's car pull into the driveway. A few minutes later I heard someone opening the sliding glass door. After a couple of seconds Zac poked his head through the trap door in the tree house. He looked around but couldn't see me because I was hiding. He pulled himself all the way into the tree house and walked right over to me. He helped me up and pulled me into a very tight hug.
"Hi" I said smiling
"Hey you look amazing"
"Thank you" I stood on my tip toes and kissed him
"Are you ready?"
"Yeah"
"Lets go" Zac started to climb down the ladder. I hadn't thought about the climbing down part. I climbed down slowly after Zac got off the ladder and told him that he better not let me fall. We walked back through the house. Zac wouldn't let go of my hand. I had to convince him to let it go so I could shut and lock the door. He walked me over to the passenger side of the car and opened the door for me. Then he walked back around and put the car in reverse and drove to the restaurant the restaurant was really nice we were brought to a private room towards the back. We had dinner and were done about 9 o clock, there were so many people there it took forever to get anything. While we were waiting for the check I remembered that Zac never told me who was on the phone earlier
"Zac who was on the phone earlier?"
"Your professor"
"What did they want?"
"He just wanted to tell you that he sent in your last tape to a few record companies and Island Def Jam wants to sign you"
"Really!" I said jumping up from the table almost knocking it over
"Yeah" Zac said standing up "congratulations" he said before giving me a kiss. I was so happy but then it occurred to me that Island Def Jam was the company that wouldn't let the guys make the music that they wanted to.
"Its ok, I don’t care if they are our old label or not, do what you want to and don’t let anything other than you decide for you"
"Thanks Zac" I said hugging him tighter a couple minutes later the check came and my head was still spinning
"Are you ready to go" Zac said taking my hand
"Yeah so where are we going now?"
"you'll see" I tried to think of all the places in Tulsa where there could be a New Year's Eve party but all I could think about was IDJ wanting to sign me. Zac stopped in the parking lot for a park that I didn't recognize.
"What are we doing here?"
"Celebrating the new year"
"Oh I see is anyone else coming?"
"No"
"What time is it?
"10:30"
"You just drove for an hour and a half and I didn't realize it"
"Well sort of I drove in circles for an hour and 15 minutes then drove 15 minutes here"
"Oh what are we going to do until midnight?" I asked with a flirtatious smile playing on my lips. Zac walked around to the trunk of his car and pulled out a pile of 3 or 4 blankets and a picnic basket which I thought was odd considering we had just ate but I didn't say anything. He closed the trunk and walked up to me and took my hand. We walked for a few minutes in silence. I rested my head on his arm as we walked. When we reached the fountain Zac stopped. It was gorgeous the water was sparkling under the top layer of ice and we could see the tower with the clock in it. Zac laid a blanket on the ground and spread it out then he laid another blanket on top of that. He set one blanket at the top of the other two rolled up he sat down and then had me sit down next to him. He pulled the fourth blanket around us. I scooted closer to him and put my head on his shoulder as he wrapped his arms around me. I reached behind me and pulled the other blanket around the back of us so it blocked out all the cold. We sat there in each others arms for a while. Every time Zac would move I would get cold chills because he was so warm. At about 11:30 Zac pulled the picnic basket over and took out some snack food. We ate for a little bit but I was getting really tired so I laid down. Zac laid down next to me after he put the food away. We laid in silence for a few minutes and just as I was about to fall asleep Zac started to shake me
"El wake up it’s almost midnight"
"Okay I am up" I said sitting up next to him. When I sat up I looked at the clock and it was 3 minutes until midnight. Then I saw that there was a candle sitting on the edge of the blanket and it was lit. I looked at Zac and he jus smiled. I had no idea what he was up to. As it got closer to midnight I got more and more anxious. At 11:59 Zac asked me to dance with him. I laughed and got up "there isn’t any music"
"I'll take care of that" Zac said before starting to sing Dream Girl. I sank into his arms with every note. At midnight Zac stopped singing and kissed me. Then he got down on one knee and pulled a box out of his pocket. "Beth, I love you so much I have loved since practically forever. I am really happy we got back together. Will you marry me?" I just stared at him for a second. When I looked into his eyes I knew that I could really spend the rest of my life with him. I took his hands and pulled him up into a hug and kissed him "is that a yes?" he asked trying not to laugh
"Yes it is" He took the ring and slipped it on my finger. We kissed one last time before we picked everything up and headed back to my house. When we got back to my house we set everything down in the living room. I took Zac's hand and we walked upstairs into my bedroom. I pulled some of his old clothes out of my dresser for him to change into and I went into my bathroom and changed while Zac changed in my room. When I walked back out he was sitting on the edge of my bed. I walked over to him and kissed him. Then I crawled under the covers with Zac right behind me. I fell asleep with Zac's arms wrapped around me. I woke up the next morning holding Zac's hands and his arms were wrapped around me. I wanted to stay there all day, in his arms, but we had stuff to do mainly to tell everyone what happened last night. I quickly glanced down at my hand to make sure I hadn't imagined it all. I rolled over so I was facing Zac. I ran my fingers down the side of his face. Then his eyes opened. "Hey"
"Hey yourself" I leaned over and kissed him
"Want to go get breakfast and then head over to your house?"
"Sure" I was starting to get up and then my phone rang
"Hello"
"Hi Liz"
"Hi mom" Zac mouthed for me to tell her about the engagement so I did "I have something to tell you"
"What’s that?"
"Zac and I are engaged"
"Congratulations"
"Thanks did you call for a specific reason?"
"Just to see how you were doing, how are classes?"
"I’m great and classes are too my professor told me yesterday that Island Def Jam wants to sign me"
"That’s great"
"I have to go because Zac and I were going to head out for some breakfast"
"Okay bye honey"
"Bye mom" I hung up and just looked at Zac. I couldn't believe I was engaged to him. We left a little while later and had breakfast then we went to his house. Everyone was really excited that we were 'finally' engaged as Diana put it. We spent the rest of the day at his house with his family. Then I went back home because I had class the next day.
I don’t know about y’all but I know about us and It’s the only way we know how to rock I don’t know about y’all but I know about us and It’s the only way we know how to rock
Then next couple months were crazy because we were planning our wedding while the guys were recording. We decided to have the wedding the week after Zac's birthday and the week before mine. We picked October 28th. We decided to have the wedding at the church we both attended while we were growing up. The reception was going to be at the Hanson's house. As the wedding got closer everything felt more and more right. My dress was very simple but really pretty. It wasn't really poofy just a little bit towards the bottom. It was white and it had a really long train. The day of the wedding came really quickly. As my mom drove me to the church I got butterflies in my stomach. She assured me that it was completely normal so I felt a little better. The time from when I arrived at the church to when the doors opened for me to walk in to the church flew by so fast. As the doors were pulled open I saw Zac standing at the alter looking as happy as I had ever seen him. I gave him a quick smile as I walked toward him. The entire wedding flew by. All I could do was stare at Zac and smile giving the expected response when it was called for. As our first dance as husband and wife Zac and I danced to "You Set Me Free" by Michelle Branch. We left the next day for our honeymoon in Hawaii. We were there for a week and then we flew back to Tulsa. Zac thought it was kind of weird to be living in the house he grew up in but I loved it.
As the song ended I put the top back on the box and the door to the room swung open
"Hey"
"Hi" I said looking at the door
"How's Mikaila Anne?" He said wrapping his arms around me and putting one of his hands on my enlarged stomach
"Much better now that her daddy is here" I said smiling. I stood on my tip toes to kiss him
"What were you doing?"
"Looking at some pictures of me and Zac" the smile faded from his face.
"Oh, where’s Jaydee?" he asked as the smile slipped from his face
"She’s in her room taking a nap, what’s wrong?
"Nothing really it’s just this time of year you always pull out those boxes and look at the pictures of you and Zac and it kind of makes me feel like you don’t love me"
"I love you, it’s just that Zac was my best friend, my boyfriend and my first husband and then it was all taken away so quickly" I said starting to cry
"I know I’m sorry I brought it up" After he left the horrible memories came flooding back
I had just gone to the doctor's it was about 6 months after Zac and I had gotten married. Zac was supposed to becoming home from his week long trip to L.A. I didn't go with him because I had just been out there the week before to record my album. I had just found out that I was pregnant. I couldn't wait to get home and tell Zac. On the way there I passed a crash. I was always one of those people who could never look at crashes but for some reason this one caught my attention. I looked at the cars. They were mangled and one car was completely totaled. I knew that the driver or anyone in that car could not be in good shape. The car looked very familiar almost like Tay's car. I shook the thought from my head. It couldn't be could it. I looked at the license plate MMMHAN3. I gasped it was Taylor's car I looked around and didn't see any of them. I pulled over and got out. I walked up to the officer on the scene
"I'm sorry Ma'am but you'll have to leave"
"Officer I believe that car" I said pointing to Tay's "is my brother in law's he was supposed to be bringing my husband home, are they okay?"
"They were all taken to the hospital"
"How are they?"
"two of them have several injuries but none that are life threatening but the third got thrown from the car even though he was wearing his seatbelt, it snapped, it was a good thing though because otherwise he would have gotten a piece of the dash board in his stomach and probably would have bled to death before the paramedics got here"
"What hospital are they in" I knew I had to find Zac and from the sounds of things very fast
"St. Edna's"
"Thank you" I hollered as I ran back over to my car and drove to the hospital which was only 5 minutes from there. I ran up to the desk in the waiting room and asked for Zac's room number. The lady thought that i was just some fan so I had to take out my id and prove that my last name was in fact Hanson. After debating for a few minutes she let me in. I got to Zac's room as a group of doctors were leaving. "Excuse me" I said tapping one of them on the shoulder "how is Zac?"
"He’s doing well right now but overall he doesn't look too good" I didn't respond to the doctor's comment I just went into Zac's room. He didn't seem to be awake when I walked in I sat down in a chair next to his bed
"Hey El" He said without even turning his head to look to see who it was. He reached out for my hand
"Hey Zac, I love you" I said leaning forward and kissing him very gently on the lips because I wasn't sure if they were sore or anything
"I love you too"
"There’s something I have to tell you" Zac opened one eye and looked at me
"What is it?"
"I’m pregnant" I said as a smile spread across my face. Zac sat up a little bit and gave me a hug. It looked as if that small amount of movement took all of his energy
"That news and seeing you made my day" I kissed him again. I leaned back in my chair and just watched him. After a few minutes he turned to me "I love you so much Elizabeth, don’t forget that"
"I love you too and I don’t think I could Zac" I was scared. It seemed like Zac was telling me he was dying but I wouldn't believe it. A few minutes later a group of doctors walked in and asked me to leave. "Zac I love you" I said as I bent over and kissed him. He wrapped his arms around my back
"I love you too" with tears in my eyes I walked out of the room and into the waiting room. I couldn't sit still while I was in there I was pacing back and forth. After what seemed like an eternity the doctor I had talked to earlier came out of the double doors and walked over to me
"ma'am"
"Yes?" I said with a sad sound in my voice
"I hate to have to tell you this but your husband died, I'm sorry" He then handed me a box with all of Zac's things in it. I sat down in the closest chair and just cried and cried. After a few hours someone tapped me on the shoulder. I looked up and saw Diana standing over me
"I'm so sorry honey" She said
"Diana I miss him so much already"
"I know I do too" she said engulfing me in a hug. I grabbed the box of Zac's things and opened it I pulled out his wedding ring and his cross necklace. Then I handed the box to Diana
"I think you should have it" She took the box and just smiled a thank you. I put Zac's necklace on. And left the hospital. I drove home in a daze. I was lucky not to lose the baby my doctor told me a few months later when I went in for a check up. Our Daughter was born on December 22nd. She had Zac's eyes and blonde hair. She looked so much like him it was almost scary. I decided to name her Jaydee Walker.
I opened my eyes and realized I was lying on the floor of Zac's old room. All the boxes were still laid out in front of me, but the last one didn't have the top on it. I sat up and put it back on the box "I could have sworn I put the top back on that" I said to myself. I stood up to put the boxes away. As I stood up I felt the baby kick. After I finished putting the boxes away I heard the door to the room open
"Hey babe are you in here"
"Yeah" I said turning to face Zac. I almost gasped because of my dream but instead I gave him a hug and kiss. "Ow" I said when the baby kicked again
"What’s wrong?"
"The baby kicked" I took his hand and put it where the baby had kicked. He laughed when the baby kicked again.
"Where’s Jaydee?"
"She in her room sleeping" I said picking up the baby monitor. Jaydee was now almost a year old and I was 6 months pregnant with our second child. We didn't know if it was a boy or a girl yet. We wanted it to be a surprise. If it is a boy we are going to name him Jonathon Zachary and if it is a girl we are going to name her Christina Marie. We were still living in the house Zac grew up in. We both loved it there. I had just finished recording my second cd and Zac and his brothers had just finished touring.