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really want holidays to come soon sigh. the year's barely started, but i can't wait for it to end already :/
sometimes i wonder if i'm too paranoid.
like i get worried when people don't reply after an appropriate period of time (or they dont at all, which is simple rude >___>)
getting really sick of school already and i'm not even halfway through sem 2 (/O\)
just really worried about the progress of group projects, or again i'm too paranoid
i dont know man, i really dont like group assignments *^* two brains are better than one, but trying to manage with completely new people i dont know and coming up with a coherent argument, insightful analysis and whatever crap really stresses the hell out of me.
especially since i know i dont possess very good language and analytical skills....
im not regretting majoring in history, no.
i guess i didn't think deeply enough of what it means to be a history student, and the competition seems so stiff.................not to mention all of the above that i'm not confident in :<
sigh, just rambling here because i feel so meh keep rambling on twitter and everyone one is feeling the dreary school life so sighhhhhhhhh :<
haven't gone out just for fun and not think about anything in a while, i really really really miss holidays ;___;
also, due to this sem's horrible scheudling, i havent been able any new friends whom i can lunch and know more about with each other........sigh. heck, i'm not even in school much LOL and when i'm in school most of the time i have lessons anyway.
anyway received a message about being invited as alumni to sing in YST Conservatory. i dont know if i should join........but i'm the kind of person who lets opportunities slip past just like that huh. .........dont even know if it'll be awkward if i go, meh. (it prolly will be because im such an awkward turtle)
also, the making new friends thing.......i feel as if im slowly building up a more fake version of myself, so much so that i reflect and think whether i said anything wrong in front of that new friend, worrying whether the next time we'll still be as close............i really worry too much huh. sobs. someone take this annoying habit away from me TT_______TT
i do enjoy what im studying now, but once exams and assignments and tutorials arrive it just makes me feel so.....insignificant amongst all the zai kias sad face :(
okay i promised myself that i'll go tidy up my (i dont think it's very well-written sigh 20% ley what do i do T___T) book review.
i have a feeling i'll be coming here to rant again, so for you who read till here, thank you for reading my ramblings LOL hope i entertained you hahahahahahahahahhahah
sometimes i wonder if i'm too paranoid.
like i get worried when people don't reply after an appropriate period of time (or they dont at all, which is simple rude >___>)
getting really sick of school already and i'm not even halfway through sem 2 (/O\)
just really worried about the progress of group projects, or again i'm too paranoid
i dont know man, i really dont like group assignments *^* two brains are better than one, but trying to manage with completely new people i dont know and coming up with a coherent argument, insightful analysis and whatever crap really stresses the hell out of me.
especially since i know i dont possess very good language and analytical skills....
im not regretting majoring in history, no.
i guess i didn't think deeply enough of what it means to be a history student, and the competition seems so stiff.................not to mention all of the above that i'm not confident in :<
sigh, just rambling here because i feel so meh keep rambling on twitter and everyone one is feeling the dreary school life so sighhhhhhhhh :<
haven't gone out just for fun and not think about anything in a while, i really really really miss holidays ;___;
also, due to this sem's horrible scheudling, i havent been able any new friends whom i can lunch and know more about with each other........sigh. heck, i'm not even in school much LOL and when i'm in school most of the time i have lessons anyway.
anyway received a message about being invited as alumni to sing in YST Conservatory. i dont know if i should join........but i'm the kind of person who lets opportunities slip past just like that huh. .........dont even know if it'll be awkward if i go, meh. (it prolly will be because im such an awkward turtle)
also, the making new friends thing.......i feel as if im slowly building up a more fake version of myself, so much so that i reflect and think whether i said anything wrong in front of that new friend, worrying whether the next time we'll still be as close............i really worry too much huh. sobs. someone take this annoying habit away from me TT_______TT
i do enjoy what im studying now, but once exams and assignments and tutorials arrive it just makes me feel so.....insignificant amongst all the zai kias sad face :(
okay i promised myself that i'll go tidy up my (i dont think it's very well-written sigh 20% ley what do i do T___T) book review.
i have a feeling i'll be coming here to rant again, so for you who read till here, thank you for reading my ramblings LOL hope i entertained you hahahahahahahahahhahah