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Dec 08, 2006 00:06

I feel like a different person now. I think most of you probably added me because of a few stupid entries about the English countryside or my family or some other nonsense - I don't know why, in fact. The truth is, the countryside has left me completely unprepared for ordinary life, it has left me unable to interact with people, made me into this ( Read more... )

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qou December 8 2006, 08:29:56 UTC

but anna, ordinary life is for suckas.

likepatsycline December 8 2006, 19:32:08 UTC

Correct! Please inform me about some ancient fresco or bodhisattva or something. I want to get away from modern life.

qou December 9 2006, 11:38:16 UTC

likepatsycline December 9 2006, 21:57:45 UTC

that'll do it.

ex_tropes393 December 8 2006, 22:41:52 UTC

Too much pop music!

likepatsycline December 9 2006, 21:53:43 UTC

never!

heartmilk December 9 2006, 19:02:26 UTC

I added you because your writing is so hush, quite like good sunshine. Smile!

Whereabouts are you, again? I daren't venture any guesses for the fear that it will already worsen the impression that I am forgetful enough. I somehow thought it was Bristol! But it seems you are in London, hmm.

Anyway, I should come find you someday, wherever you are. Or write you.

likepatsycline December 9 2006, 21:55:29 UTC

I'm living mostly in London now - and you're right! I was in Bristol, but I graduated in July and moved home, briefly, before starting to temp. I still spend most of my free time at home, though.

life is all just make believe joemess December 11 2006, 18:39:13 UTC

i know exactly how you feel. i often find myself singing the song "is that all there is?" (i guess the pj harvey version). i think part of it at least is a mood thing though as other times i feel great. i think most jobs are a disappointment though as they are not us and we are not them, but we are defined so much by them in our society. our jobs sometimes are really like being paid to poop in our pants on cue for the pleasure of others.

but i believe in having a rich inner life. two of my role models come to think of it are henry darger and the killer guy from the movie the cell (minus the murder of the cell guy and weird sexuality of both of them though). henry darger worked like 12 hours a day as a janitor or something but spent all his free time living in the world of his art, his rich inner world. like a lifelong dream, like a rich technicolor movie. our house is a retreat from the world filled with books and pictures and sounds and movies and two cats to molest. here is a link from an lj friend that works for me:

Re: life is all just make believe likepatsycline December 17 2006, 20:07:38 UTC

This is what I'm trying to reconcile at the moment, the fact that I might never have the kind of job I imagined, but it is not the end of the world. It is sad that we are defined by our jobs, it is sad that work takes up so much of our lives and often drains us so that the rest of our time is wasted. Sometimes I look at all the people in the city and think, what are we doing, why have we let this happen? I wish we could all go back.