I live for myself now, and love only myself...
I feel so...emo...and not the cool I wear-tight-pants-emo either...
I guess...I fuck things up more than I think I do. Honestly, I don't... can't see what I did wrong. Maybe I'm too blind to see my own mistakes, or maybe I was to blind to see how broken everything was in the first place. I just....it's one of those times you wish you had a time machine so you could fix everything to the way it was ya know? Or maybe I should just see what the hell I did wrong. I know I'm not perfect, and we all make mistakes, but...is it really enough to deserve all this? Is it enough to toss away friendships and bonds you held dear? I mean...I don't know...I just know it hurts...so bad....maybe...I should just give up? If...losing people hurts this much...maybe I should just...throw it all away and be by myself you know? Keep everyone at a distance and be the only one to love me... It seems like things would be....easier that way. I don't know...for now I slate this as confusion.
I guess...I fuck things up more than I think I do. Honestly, I don't... can't see what I did wrong. Maybe I'm too blind to see my own mistakes, or maybe I was to blind to see how broken everything was in the first place. I just....it's one of those times you wish you had a time machine so you could fix everything to the way it was ya know? Or maybe I should just see what the hell I did wrong. I know I'm not perfect, and we all make mistakes, but...is it really enough to deserve all this? Is it enough to toss away friendships and bonds you held dear? I mean...I don't know...I just know it hurts...so bad....maybe...I should just give up? If...losing people hurts this much...maybe I should just...throw it all away and be by myself you know? Keep everyone at a distance and be the only one to love me... It seems like things would be....easier that way. I don't know...for now I slate this as confusion.