Fic "Shame" Dean's POV

[likiel]

DEAN

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There should be at least one place

One place in this world I saved

Where I can feel perfectly safe.

Aren’t you supposed to be that place?

I forgot, aren’t you that place Brother?

My scarred flesh, my warm blood

My beating heart, my teardrop

My brother.

¤

I’ve been alone for years. I’ve been alone before you

Comments

[taylorariel]

Very good job here! Says just about everything I was screaming at the tv screen Tuesday night. But, as I have learned very recently in my own life with my own dearly deeply beloved younger brother, there comes a time when you have to live for yourself and not for another.

Dean needs to let go of Sam and move on. The love that he has for his brother is not returned. That does not mean Sam is wrong (although he is) because you cannot return a love that you do not feel- even if you want to.

Sam has no desire to live. And a person has to want to live for themselves not for someone else. The way the writers have assassinated this character over the last two seasons, I am ready for Sam to go once and for all.

Dean deserves better.

Thank You for your story.

[likiel]

Oh Dear, I'm quite in agreement with you and I can't help but feel guilty about it. It's hard to just... totally give up on Sam, you know? Dean loves him so much, too much and that's what have been destroying him for nine years now. But I love Sam, still. I'm just... tired of loving him, I guess. And I think Dean will soon feel this way.

I think you will find my fic "Let it go" to your taste, and maybe it will help you with all the anger about Sam. I wrote it during season eight, because of the way Sam abandonned Dean in purgatory.

Here: http://likiel.livejournal.com/15871.html

Thank you for the feedback and enjoy.

[taylorariel]

Thank You very much. I just read your "Let it go" and I am glad it ended the way it did. I can not put into words how much I HATED Sam in season 8. Of course it is really the writers I hate because they are the ones who killed the character for me. And the fact that even now- a season later- there is still no justifiable reason for Sam not looking for his brother, other than that he chose not to, puts a stain on him that I cannot wash off.

I do hope that either Sam is rewritten and becomes the character he should be or that Dean leaves him behind this season and goes on without him.

Dean deserves so much better and- honestly- so do the viewers.

Thank You for sharing your story with me.

[likiel]

You are completely welcome ^^ and let us hope that the writers heard our pleas, I don't recognized Sam anymore. And Dean do deserves better, if only he could convinced himself of that...

Kiss <3

[paperbackwriter]

I made the mistake of reading this ten minutes before I had to go out. In floods. Just ripping at me. Every line is like a dagger but oh god..."I’m sorry I got out."...was definitely the kill shot for me. Utterly utterly heartrending. So good. Thank you x

[likiel]

I was blinking tears of rage and frustration when I wrote that line. Dean is so broken, it's not even funny anymore and I'm getting tired of watching him bleeding out everything that make him... him.

Thank you for your wonderful feedback, I'm so glad you liked it.

[borgmama1of5]

While Dean could never say this, I believe it is what is in his heart...

[likiel]

Oh, I don't know... a few tears in their beers... and miracles can happen.

[lilithrain]

I haven't seen this episode yet but I have to tell you, this, is so many levels of awesome. I heard that in Dean's voice. ♥ I feel I should be giving him a hug right now.

[likiel]

*giggles* Thank you <3 (and I think everyone who loves Dean could have use a hug after this episode)