Both so perfectly true to who Sam and Dean are. How can any of this be reconciled? I don't know. But this hurts. It hurts to see what they do to each other. Beautifully written and tearing my heart out right now.
Thank you! This season is literally ripping my heart out of my chest. It's getting so hard to watch. I need the outlet of getting the angst out of my mind. I'm glad you liked it. I really can't see how the writers are gonna fix things between the boys. I think they won't.
Sam is feeling more angry, than hurt, more dark than down, determined to hurt if he's hurt again. No tears when I wrote it, just a heavy heart. Thank you for reading!
You really nailed these. I feel for Dean, God I do. I hate to see him hurting so much but what Sam did and said was necessary and long overdue. Dean's love is too consuming and it would be suffocating regardless of his intentions. Nobody could endure the weight of that kind of obsessional love without it causing them to collapse under it if they didn't at least try to break free. I don't really feel that Sam said in any way that he didn't love Dean, just that there have to be lines drawn that should never be crossed but Dean didn't hear it that way - you conveyed that so well. They really are seriously messed up.
Dean's POV was like a fist clenched in my chest but Sam's POV broke me entirely. Beautiful writing.
What a beautiful and deep feedback, thank you! This is exactly what I feel and I'm starting to have a dreadful feeling about the season finale. I can't see hope anywhere for the boys.
This makes sense to me., as does the Dean tag. That episode was SO painful at the end; way worse then the one from Sex and Violence. Sam is my boy and I am so upset with him. He's right in many ways but why must it be said with such cutting. Your version helps. Sam wants to be at peace - he's been through so much. But Dean...oh Dean. How will they come out of this?
I'm glad it help. Last episode was so damn hard to watch, Sam and Dean are tearing each other apart. It's tiresome and bitter. I think that while Sam ache for peace, for all of this to end once in for all, he's so angry at Dean for doing what he did, so angry, that those words he said were aiming to hurt his brother. Because otherwise, I might think Sam's got a selective memory. Anyway, S9 is a torture. Things better come together soon.
"I feel like poison, a disease that infested you..."
I love this absolute distillation of Sam's feelings. Totally sums up everything he said in regard to their relationship. And this "You never asked me my age." Oh god...so much in that. Nine years of feels in six words. How the hell did you do that! Just heartbreaking. Thank you x
I'm so very glad I could strike a core with Sam's POV. People always find hard to defend him. But I think that to understand Sam, you need to look at the facts, trials and errors, of his life. It's so much easier to understand Dean through empathy and guess his feelings. With Sam, I realized in season four, that to write him, I always needed to remember that this character always, always lie to himself. About the blood, about Ruby, about wanting a normal life, about his dad, about Jess, about Benny and the purgatory, about Amelia, about the trials and about Lucifer
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There was a great thing I saw, no idea who the author was but it was something like "Dean loves Sam so much he wants to make the sun rise for him every morning. Sam loves Dean so much he wants to break the sun so he doesn't have to" or something like that. It just really stuck with me
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Dean's POV was like a fist clenched in my chest but Sam's POV broke me entirely. Beautiful writing.
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Thank you for sharing both stories!
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Kiss,
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I love this absolute distillation of Sam's feelings. Totally sums up everything he said in regard to their relationship. And this "You never asked me my age." Oh god...so much in that. Nine years of feels in six words. How the hell did you do that!
Just heartbreaking. Thank you x
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