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Ok so I haven't really been home at all but my comp is screwed up anyway so yea. This is real long but heres whats been happening..
Thursday: Whoa it was so nice outside. Yea we all went down to the park n hung out. It was pretty awesome. Met a bunch of ppl etc. That night me n Bryan stayed over at Jamies. Yea that was fun! Holy shit, we where doing it n Jon n TJ come knocking on the window for Bryan.. how fuckin annoying. Ahem. lol
Friday: Well, Jamie went to school so me n Bryan just hung out for a while. Stupid us decided to walk the whole way to the high school in the freezing cold wearing practically nothing. Got my schedule then ended up hanging out at Taras forever. Very boring. Finally went back to Jamies n hung out.
Later on a bunch of us left n went up to Chris's so he could get us some beer. We hung out there for a while then took the beer back to Jamie's. Bryan got really fuckin drunk. Wow! lol It was funny at first but then umm yea. I got sooo pissed off at him cuz yea we fucked then literally 2 minutes later he was next door grinding up on some chick. Yea I was all crying n shit n all random guys where giving me hugs, it was sweet.
I left him at Jamies n stayed the night at Rickys. Yea, I like him.. a lot.
Its fuckin crazy. I didn't cheat on Bryan. I wouldn't cheat on anyone. But yea, we cuddled till like 6am n it was just great. One of those times where you could stay there forever. Yea. He likes me. I dunno wtf to do. =/
Saturday: I don't even know what time we woke up, but I pretty much laid in bed half the day. Bryan found out I was at Rickys n he came up n yelled at me. He said some really mean things which I dont even wanna mention. Rickys mum talked to me n she knows we like each other so she was thinkin of plans to get us together, it was cute!
I had to leave cuz I hadn't been home in like 3 days, so yea I went home to get a shower n get changed n stuff. I was suppossed to go back but my mum wouldn't let me n yea I was pissed.
Sunday: Bryan came up to get me n we hung out at Rickys wit everyone. Well, since Bryan never went home, his mum called the cops n stuff. Well, shit went down n he got taken home by some cop. At first he was suppossed to move in wit his dad in Virginia n well I was kinda not so happy when I found out he wasn't. I know thats real bad. =/
I stayed at Rickys till like 9 then lil Pyle gave me a ride home. It was funny before I left cuz everyone was chillen in Rickys room n TJ (his bro) randomly went.. 'do you like Ricky?' n we look at each other n just smile. Haha, its so fuckin obvious lol Aww the way he smiles at me just drives me crazy!
Anyway yea I went home n Bryan called n we talked from like 11 till 2am. Half the time he was fuckin yelling at me. Seriously, we fight so much. But like, he doesn't give me a chance to express myself, he just yells at me. He told me I needed to change.. wtf??
Monday: Chris, Bryana n Bryan came n picked me up to hang out at their house. Bryan bought me pink roses. Yes very sweet I know. But then pretty much 20 minutes after we got to his house he was mad at me. The reason.. cuz I wouldn't have sex. So he was all pissed off n that made me mad cuz you shouldn't fuckin get mad at me for that, seriously. I dunno. Then he was like 'you need to be like other chicks' WTF? Urgh. He yelled at me for another 15 minutes then suddenly acted like nothing had happened. So fucking annoying.
A lil bit later, we went up to McDonalds n ate. I swear we're gonna get kicked out of there pretty soon! Fun times though, lol
Tuesday: Didn't go out. Just sorted some more of my stuff out in my room. Been thinking alot. I really don't wanna hurt Bryan. I love him. I'm just not in love with him. That doesn't mean I'm saying I love Ricky. I don't.. hell no! lol But I really like him. He's pretty much all I think about.
Today: Well, Bryans not coming down so I was gonna call Shane or Luke or someone to see what they're doing. Shouldn't have even fuckin mentioned that to Bryan cuz we ended up fighting about that. God seriously, I'm really getting sick of this.
Sorry thats extremely long! I don't expect yall to read it but yea I could really do with some input.. =/
*kisses*
Thursday: Whoa it was so nice outside. Yea we all went down to the park n hung out. It was pretty awesome. Met a bunch of ppl etc. That night me n Bryan stayed over at Jamies. Yea that was fun! Holy shit, we where doing it n Jon n TJ come knocking on the window for Bryan.. how fuckin annoying. Ahem. lol
Friday: Well, Jamie went to school so me n Bryan just hung out for a while. Stupid us decided to walk the whole way to the high school in the freezing cold wearing practically nothing. Got my schedule then ended up hanging out at Taras forever. Very boring. Finally went back to Jamies n hung out.
Later on a bunch of us left n went up to Chris's so he could get us some beer. We hung out there for a while then took the beer back to Jamie's. Bryan got really fuckin drunk. Wow! lol It was funny at first but then umm yea. I got sooo pissed off at him cuz yea we fucked then literally 2 minutes later he was next door grinding up on some chick. Yea I was all crying n shit n all random guys where giving me hugs, it was sweet.
I left him at Jamies n stayed the night at Rickys. Yea, I like him.. a lot.
Its fuckin crazy. I didn't cheat on Bryan. I wouldn't cheat on anyone. But yea, we cuddled till like 6am n it was just great. One of those times where you could stay there forever. Yea. He likes me. I dunno wtf to do. =/
Saturday: I don't even know what time we woke up, but I pretty much laid in bed half the day. Bryan found out I was at Rickys n he came up n yelled at me. He said some really mean things which I dont even wanna mention. Rickys mum talked to me n she knows we like each other so she was thinkin of plans to get us together, it was cute!
I had to leave cuz I hadn't been home in like 3 days, so yea I went home to get a shower n get changed n stuff. I was suppossed to go back but my mum wouldn't let me n yea I was pissed.
Sunday: Bryan came up to get me n we hung out at Rickys wit everyone. Well, since Bryan never went home, his mum called the cops n stuff. Well, shit went down n he got taken home by some cop. At first he was suppossed to move in wit his dad in Virginia n well I was kinda not so happy when I found out he wasn't. I know thats real bad. =/
I stayed at Rickys till like 9 then lil Pyle gave me a ride home. It was funny before I left cuz everyone was chillen in Rickys room n TJ (his bro) randomly went.. 'do you like Ricky?' n we look at each other n just smile. Haha, its so fuckin obvious lol Aww the way he smiles at me just drives me crazy!
Anyway yea I went home n Bryan called n we talked from like 11 till 2am. Half the time he was fuckin yelling at me. Seriously, we fight so much. But like, he doesn't give me a chance to express myself, he just yells at me. He told me I needed to change.. wtf??
Monday: Chris, Bryana n Bryan came n picked me up to hang out at their house. Bryan bought me pink roses. Yes very sweet I know. But then pretty much 20 minutes after we got to his house he was mad at me. The reason.. cuz I wouldn't have sex. So he was all pissed off n that made me mad cuz you shouldn't fuckin get mad at me for that, seriously. I dunno. Then he was like 'you need to be like other chicks' WTF? Urgh. He yelled at me for another 15 minutes then suddenly acted like nothing had happened. So fucking annoying.
A lil bit later, we went up to McDonalds n ate. I swear we're gonna get kicked out of there pretty soon! Fun times though, lol
Tuesday: Didn't go out. Just sorted some more of my stuff out in my room. Been thinking alot. I really don't wanna hurt Bryan. I love him. I'm just not in love with him. That doesn't mean I'm saying I love Ricky. I don't.. hell no! lol But I really like him. He's pretty much all I think about.
Today: Well, Bryans not coming down so I was gonna call Shane or Luke or someone to see what they're doing. Shouldn't have even fuckin mentioned that to Bryan cuz we ended up fighting about that. God seriously, I'm really getting sick of this.
Sorry thats extremely long! I don't expect yall to read it but yea I could really do with some input.. =/
*kisses*