My second time online or even near a computer since I've been back. The internet seemed so much more exciting from Europe. But I suppose I was scared of getting too disconnected from everyone I love by being out of the country for a month. Now I am just waiting for the final move. Less than two months to go. I have not done anything of ( Read more... )

yeah...I'm home and all that.

peace

well, i´m still in spain and now not talking in spanish or being ridiculously idiotic. there is a cuban concert going on a roof right across from where i am typing. natalie and i were there for a little, but after this are heading to a jazz club. we´ve had some weird experiences, but too many to bore you with. i hope everyone back home is happy ( Read more... )

somos bebidos de barato champagne en españa. hay hombres locos que paran a natalie y yo y dicieron que nosotros somos guapas. hoy, un hombre corró despúes de mi gritando, pero yo no quiere él. creo que ellos solo quieran sexo, pero no es muy differente de los estados unidos. pero, no es importante. tenemos mas alchol en nuestra habitacíon ( Read more... )

wow. tomorrow is it.

some friends have left me with big smiles and hugs to tide me over until we meet again. with others, all i have is a stolen sweatshirt. it's funny how i could have never predicted this end. that i would be tearing up over people i met just six months ago and not over those i've been close to for years...

life is a joke

( slipping away )

to audrey: i'm sorry if you feel left out around us. i really am. you are one of my closest friends and i tried calling you every damn day i was there and wrote you text messages the first two days, then just gave up but kept calling. and the only time jessica and i really talked while we were there was me saying i couldn't stop thinking about how ( Read more... )

i think i wasn't gone long enough. i came back feeling like i never left. i've discovered i'm not part of anything here. ten days and i'll never have to work for the bullshit around here again. sure, i'm just going to new bullshit, but atleast it is a different location. better beaches. five days gone and nobody notices. haha, it's like i don't ( Read more... )

monday ( Read more... )

i feel like shit. i feel abandoned and fat and alone. i also feel like i'm being melodramatic. i started crying in the dance show. then when i started thinking about how i had started crying later, i almost cried again. if audrey had still been there i would have. this is the first friday night i've spent at home in ages. i'm not sure what to do. ( Read more... )