Team selection result is out. I am in team B. this makes me more serious than if I were in team A because I am going to be the most senior player on the team along with Ling Hui. Which means I have a big, big responsibility. Which means I have slightly less than two months to seriously whip myself into shape. i have to be strong not only physically ( Read more... )

I made a promise to write at least one positive thing in my journal every day, and if the day hadn't gone well, I have to find something to be positive about. Else I'll have to shut this blog.

Today I learnt that many things that we think of ourselves are actually pretty insignificant. When i realised how tremendous the weight that some other people ( Read more... )

So... I believe the Senseis are almost done with their selection. Browsing through my older entries, I went through the reasons for wanting to be part of the team that I wrote down.. and realised that not all the reasons are still accurate. I still want to fight and win with beautiful kendo, (hopefully also with enough room for a little bit of self ( Read more... )

I was a tad grumpy this morning, and physically aching and somewhat in pain in various parts of my body. Then I realised that it was a beautiful morning ... I'm surrounded by friends, doing something I love. I had been allowing so many things to get me down.

Then I realised that I can let me enjoy myself. I'm not feeling the best, but I am ( Read more... )

Well, not really. But yeah I know i give people ammunition to shoot me with... and some people derive fun from doing things like that. But I've seen worse when i was in primary school so ... Whatever man. -_-

I've nicknamed an orb spider the Uncomfortable Spider due to its large size and its choice to build a web between two shrubs along a pavement that I take to get home... and the uncomfortable feeling that it gave me if I looked too closely at it. It has grown larger in recent weeks.

Recently I got lazy and have been taking the taxi home instead of ( Read more... )

Maybe I just don't care about anyone or anything enough to do anything for them. Maybe that's why I don't make close friends because I know ultimately I will let them down. I can not and will not return their emotional favors and I will not change for them.

Once I even imagined how i would be like as a parent. I imagined talking to my children, ( Read more... )

Clint Eastwood once said: "A genius to me is someone who does well at something he hates. Anybody can do well at something he loves - it's just a question of finding the subject."

I don't think it's not so much about being a genius than having enough common sense and a touch of sensibility, but I have simply shut out everything.

I am quite sick of ( Read more... )

It's absurd anyway because I am totally not being sensible, right.

Appreciate for the reassurance. Or whatever. I RESPECT your opinions. Sorry to belittle ideals with my worthless thoughts and desires, I should just like, not be seen and not be heard. Maybe I should wear a hijab and cover my face so that I don't show myself off. Oh dear. Actually, ( Read more... )

I have gained 6kg since I started work, and a total of 8 since I started university.

That can't be good.