oh me so emo...

this whole friend situation is killin me. i'm trying so hard to be happy, but its just not working. i guess i'm not supposed to be happy. is it because i care too much that i'm always getting hurt? i love my friends too much. i'm tired of being in all this pain, caused by the ones that mean everything to me.

gotta love how SOMETHING always gets fucked up. okay so tonight was homecoming. i went to kim's house before with Kara, Neil, Laura, and Ashley, which was fun. We went to the dance and i froze my ass off waiting for linz and then just chilled i guess. so tell me how since i met Pat Nortz i had a huge crush on him and then i finally tell him tonight ( Read more... )

i am so depressed. i don't like being off of my meds, but i don't want a fake happy. i want to have real emotion. not any of this fake crap. i hate how i always feel like people are mad at me. i don't like how people are afraid to look at me in the eyes. but what really gets me is how it feels like no one cares. people tell me they love me. but i ( Read more... )

cuz you always know i'm game to be makin some porno's... lol hey well it made me laugh!

i am so weird. i just want to be like everyone else. i'm tired of being different. i dress like a boy, i talk like a boy, and no one really likes me. i don't fit in. i'm depressed and ugly. all my friends are peppy happy and so pretty. i don't want to be here any more. i'm too sad. i don't like going from super happy to really sad. its not fun at ( Read more... )

i hate boys! yea so jared is an ass and now francis keeps askin me if he can invite his friends to my house. WTF. he keeps askin me if linz is hot. and ofcourse i have to tell him that she is super hot which means hes gonna like her but what ever. urrrrgh! MI NON TI PIACE RAGAZZO! i think i might just stop talking all together! boys are so freaking ( Read more... )

i'm such a fucking fuck up! jesus i can't do anything right. friendships, relationships, school, sports. Lets just face facts, i suck at them all. i'm not a good friend. i'm not smart and i'm not athletic. i fuck everything up. my dad hates me and just when things are starting to go right i make a decision that was wrong. i'm not telling any one ( Read more... )

1. Am i ugly or cute:
2. am i mean or nice:
3. would you ever date me:
4. if so why havent you asked:
5. am i a good kisser or no:
6. am i strong or weak:
7. funny or stupid:
8. kool or geek:
9. popular or unpopular:

yea so i was deffinatly up til 11:30 waiting for linz to call. oh well i guess she just got tired and went to bed. but its all good, it happens. right now i just want to run away from everything. school is getting so hard. i can't focus. i had to switch out of bio because Mr. Miller doesn't like me and nicole. i'm too depressed to even go to school ( Read more... )