Insecurities...

[lil_sis24]

won't say much about this one. It's just that. 
english still isn't my native language and I didn't let any one read over this before I posted it here, so, it's... not edited. All mistakes are mine.


Always so tempted
to run away.
And always this inner urge
to hold you close
at the same time.
I want you so badly
I'm afraid
it could scare you away.
And that's something
I don't want to do, ever.
Because scaring you away,
means I'm going to lose you.
But there are all those feelings
inside of me,
bubbling up 
unto the surface,
mixed up feelings.
I'm fearing to lose you
if I don't tell you often enough.
On the other hand
I'm afraid you'll turn away from me
if I'm telling you my feelings
too often.
And now
I don't know
what to do. 
Always tempted,
oh so tempted,
to run away.
And always this inner urge
to stay and hold you close.
Because
no matter what,
I love you.