mutter...

[lil_smurfette]

I walked around my good intentions
And found that there were none
I blame my father for the wasted years
We hardly talked
I never thought I would forget this hate
Then a phone call made me realize I'm wrong
If I don't make it
Know that I've loved you all along
Just like the sunny days that
We ignore because
We're all dumb and jaded
And I hope to

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A long speel which I will not proofread..so it will not make sense. I love you.

[itsnot_theknife]

One of the things I hate about life is the fact we unfortunately cannot pick who our parents are, and no matter how much effort we put in to change them or help them--the fact remains that they are who they are. My mother is far from what you would call a desirable mother. She's a horrible human being who is a drain on society and who should be maimed in several ghastly ways. Most of my life I thought that it was my fault. I wondered and wondered, "why does she hate me?" "why does she say such hateful things and not seem to care about the effect it has on me?" she was never there for me physically or emotionally. The woman--only lives in the breathing sense, but inside she's dead. Cold and dead. I thought for the longest time that bettering myself would make her happy.. I obsessed over my weight, my school work..everything. Nothing worked. Then I started to think that possibly I could help her--change her and make her what I'd always wanted in a mother--but I failed at that too. After all this time, I have finally come to reality--she

[xcareoticabearx]

Hii Hannah, this doesn't have anything to do about the journal entry :( but I hope it gets better for you...

I just checked my journal or I would have added you much earlier.. take caree ~peace &love