When will it all stop?

Jun 14, 2005 23:42

when will the hate, the arguments with each other, the yelling, the screaming, the words said under one's breath, the dead silence, the glaring eyes, the hurting inside, the hurting on the outside, the bruises, the anger, the fights, the untrustworthiness, the disrespects, the talking backs, etc....when will it all stop ( Read more... )

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jillie_billie June 16 2005, 04:43:52 UTC
i wish i could make you happier sarah... it would be nice to have that kind of leisure, to wish away people's pain. i could tell you i'll always be here for you, but you know that, and you're probably tired of hearing it. i would tell you that you'll pull thru, but you're probably tired of hearing that too. the best i can say is, hold on. ive also discovered that crying with someone is much more comforting than crying on your own. when you cry on your own, you feel your most alone. when you're with someone else, they're helping you to carry the burden, and, even if they never speak, the fact that they're sitting there with you will help you know they care. i hope that helps. I hated crying in front of anyone, and at all. now that it seems like it happens so much more often, crying by myself hurts ten times more. when someone is at least breathing next to me, though, it makes it a little easier to breathe myself.
love and hugs
jilly

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ghosts darkblue_smirk June 16 2005, 14:13:45 UTC
I hate the whole teen angst thing, we all get sometime, but for some its worse than the usual self doubt questioning B/S, as for the family, everyone grows up different, loving different people, seeing actions with different lenses. As for the mask comment, Methinks you give yourself tooo little credit, you have managed to keep a high scholarly standing, (better than me) you are in charge of what 170 people? you will be able to go to any college you want, probably with a hefty sack of free money from them ( ... )

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Me too. anonymous June 18 2005, 04:55:25 UTC
In a way, I felt the same way you do. Fake. Alone. Putting on these stupid masks and facades everyday, having to act a certain way, with certain people, at a certain time. All planned. All organized. All unnatural. And never made any real sense. I've since then realized that, as comfortable as it'll be for awhile, its not long-lasting. You've gotten to that point now, you've realized something that it takes years longer for people to figure out, that playing these games doesn't just plague the body, it plagues the mind, and the very soul of a person. And you hate it, and we all hate it.
I can't just say, be yourself. After a few years, all I can really say to help is "do what makes YOU happy". Not anyone else, yes you're a selfless person and you care about others. But sweetie, in the end its gonna be you and the Big man up there. You have to make those decisions that's gonna make you happy, no matter what the outcome.
feel better, i love ya.
-alvin

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