The final hours of 2010 involved hibernating with my beloved computer in the guest bedroom of my parents' house, while a familiar chaos engulfed my otherwise civilized family. There was shouting, pouting, door-slamming and other attempts to cajole each family member to participate in packing two cars for a short trip.

Each New Year's Eve, we ( Read more... )

people are addicted to all sorts of things. mine just happened to walk & talk and leave traces for years. There are some scars that fade and fade and fade but are still there. Like being tattooed with invisible ink. I come back to old habits the way a dog circles before lying down. It's easier each time, curious and not painful, amused and not ( Read more... )

If you have a criticism to say, you have to say it with love. If you really want to help a person change or improve, you have to ask them if they want your suggestion. It's a present, your criticism. And when you say "You're too sensitive" or "You're overreacting" what you're actually saying is "I don't care how you feel" and "Your feelings are not ( Read more... )

What a way to end my time in Boston ( Read more... )

regret and nostalgia are all wrong. there should be something mellifluous about them, a longing, a sorrow, more vowels or open-ness. there should be a word for looking back while running forward, for moving in body but not in mind, for heart icing, blood pulsing, swish swish swish, old photographs, new wrinkles ( Read more... )

also. exposure therapy works. not in the short term when you're on the little step ladder and want to cry and everyone's shouting you're only a foot off the ground real-ax and all you see is everything blurring and the train whistle in your head go go going. it's scary then. (name it, claim it) you want to quit. you want to walk away, run away, not ( Read more... )

i thought i'd always be young / though the years passed ( Read more... )

 i guess one of the things we learned is that it doesn't matter if it's true or real or what happened, just as long as it works for you and you believe. and it's ok to secretly, or not so secretly, disagree just as long as you both know you're both as true as the other.

i have so much laundry in my room that needs to be sorted.

there was a lot more to say, but basically: worcester, i love you. why would i ever leave ( Read more... )

emotional scars are just like physical ones except you can't see them and only know by how the person acts, what they say & don't, do & don't, love & don't.

it's hard to find love in the chaos. i could fall asleep on your leather couch any day of the week, bay bee.  i swear this life is like the sweetest thing i've ever known.