Im looking at loosing every thing i have because twenty minutes is too far of a drive for a friend to go to work. I cant believe this.

Well its over. Steve is totally out of my life. Now i look forward to being homeless in the spring. I really don't know why i still try to live. I don't get why i keep trying? I need to give up for real. I want the courage to. Wish me luck. becky call me.

I feel like life is a runnaway train. Confused. Much... Breaking my sanity. Totally. Tooo much right now....... such a fun life...

Life. What a mess. Long day. Talk w/dad bout the wife to be. We are getting therapy. Joy.

I am so broken right now. becky call me please. I tryd to call you but it didnt work. Is the escape offer still valid?

Another night of alone. I wonder if i am important at all to him now. Some days i dont feel loved. Fuck. Joy. Decided stress. Confusion.

I dont want to be alive anymore.

Still alive. Life is wierd now. Blah.

Life sucks. My mom died on wed. The 29 th of nov. Life sucks. Bye night. Feel free to call.

So yet another weird day... My mom is in the hospital. Yuck.Majorly scarry she woke up not bieng able to breathe, So she is down at Henery Ford in Detroit.Life is weird joy. Odd note tho, I finally found nice guy, his name is Steve. Yeah!! I want no stress in my life please.....