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lilayoo

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Jul 16, 2004 22:47

everything is such a mess right now. i got in the middle of something that i shouldnt have and i fucked up a good friendship. im such a jealous fuck. im so greedy and selfish. i hate being in a group of three always the one being left out. i hate everything. i hate everyday there is another fight. we never can all get along. im so pathetic. i just ( Read more... )

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<3 xxkrazynikkixx July 16 2004, 20:08:37 UTC

ashly- a group of three is hard and whenever two people are together the person being left out always feels like they r being talked about and being hated...that isnt true @ all..me nd melissa were just realli realli close and that doesnt mean we didnt like u at all...its just the way it happened...me and melissa were realli happy together but we felt EXTREMELY bad for u but u just didnt understand at the time...i dont want u to feel that we hate u..cuz we DONT! being left out probably hurts ALOT but the three of us need to realize that when 2 ppl are together the other person isnt being left out or being talked about...we have gone through so much...but i realli wish i was little again..teenage years are TERRIBLE and everyone says to live them up...i tried but it didnt work @ all...things are relali messed up right now but i dont want u to feel guilty...it was my mistake and i need to take ALL the pain for it....love you <3

lilayoo July 16 2004, 20:20:23 UTC

we've been through so much but i just want to be happy for once. im so good at hiding all my pain. finally after 3 weeeks ive seen you and im so happy i did. i really needed to see you and let everything out. im just a jealous person and selfish and nothing will ever change that. no matter how hard i try to not get mad i do and im just always left out thats why im like that. i wish i had a friendship with someone like you and melissa do. but good things only happen to good ppl. Im stuck here in this hole and i never can get back up. im trully pathetic and you've pulled me through allot. <3 youll never know how much i need you. youve been at my side holding me and drying my tears. we lost that somewhere along the way. we need to rebuild that but idk how. we need to make some changes in our friendship like seeing each other way more than 2 days every 3 weeks that wont work for me. well i love you with all my heart. you trully are my best friend. i love you

words cant explain xxkrazynikkixx July 16 2004, 20:27:49 UTC

honestly ashly you do not want a friendship like me and melissa had because one wrong mistake can make you soo upset and u will never live past ur mistake...i know i def wont...you are definetly an extremely jealous person and selfish about some things but u need to change that because me and melissa werent leaving u out its just that we needed eachother almost everyday...ur jealousy causes alot of drama sometimes ((not to be mean about it)) but its the truth...me and u have been through so much the past 2 years...when we got into arguments we talked them over and were back to normal...we were so close last summer and i honestly dont know wut happened once school started everything went downhill from there...me and u have the worst habit of hating each other when we hang out with someone else and it realli needs to STOP...because our friendship keeps going up and down and its like i dont know when to trust you...we both have been there for each other. Its gonna take me awhile to ever get close with anyone again...i love you soo much ( ... )

Re: words cant explain lilayoo July 16 2004, 20:30:39 UTC

ur right

Re: words cant explain madkrazyitalian July 18 2004, 16:52:44 UTC

to have a close friendship you have to kno how to be a friend and being really close with someone has its ups and downs mostly ups becuase u always have soemone there for you who understands oyu and knos wut ur going through a shoulder to cryy n shit youu can have a million friends but having a best friend or just one good friend that understands EVERYTHING and that u could tell anything to means the world . . nn i had that wit you (nikki) but shit does change nn u think its better to not be close, ive learned the hard way that you need to be close to someone n have someone who will alawyas catch you no matter wut andd could make you laugh even when THEYy have tears in there eyes themself all im saying is one day youll realize that u cant rely on just yourself your gunna need someone else to confort you andd carry you when u cant walkk . . we had a good thing nn im sorry its not there anymore, nn i kno that i prob wont trust anyone like that ever again its suprising that i even let anyone in to start with ( ... )