what a dick move

[lilbeautyfly]

now the subject line is a random comment we use at work all the time. i picked it up from a co-worker and now it just makes me laugh, especially when its appropriate to use, such as now

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[what_if]

That sound's soul crushing. You're looking to confirm if there is hope for your love, and the door gets slammed shut on your nose, and then he asks if you're going to be weird.

I'm sorry.

At the same time it sounded like that helped you get closure. Like it was absolute bottom, and you sound like you're taking a bounce off the bottom and feeling better? Hopeful?

[lilbeautyfly]

it seems to have been a liberating moment. i decided that i only care about getting my life on track. i have since set goals and i may be tired most days, but i make time for what i want to do and the friends i want to see. i doubt a friendship is possible at this time cause i get a bit angry when i think about him, but we have some stuff in common so there is that chance, but i doubt it since i have no desire to put forth any effort into any kind of relationship with him.

the big thing i have realized is that i have confidence. finally. and that is a great feeling.

[what_if]

I hear ya on something making you angry, that's how I am with the Ear. It just pisses me off too much to think about.

I'm glad you're feeling better. And it sounds like you achieving stuff is only helping your confidence grow.