why are u so addicted to hurting me?

[lilbit2crazy]

Once upon a time there was a girl
In her early years she had to learn
How to grow up living in a war that she called home
Never knew just where to turn for shelter from the storm
It's not so easy to forget
All the marks you left along my face
When I was thrown against those walls.. and down those stairs
And everyday afraid to come home in fear of what i

Comments

[soradiant]

woah, its showing you have no comments, i most deff. left you a long comment, i remember reading this and writing you shit! blahh maybe its down, i'll wait to see. but yeah just making sure you know i love ya!

[lilbit2crazy]

oh yeah i had to delete the entry.. yah i got every1's comments THANK YOU! i had to delete the entry and re-post it becuz the font was showing up retarted! i wrote back 2 ur comment right?

[_jessybolo]

do u just live with him or do u live with others?

[lilbit2crazy]

i live with my dad, step mom and my lil bruther

[_lovedefined]

Aww, Gosh. I Can relate here somewhat, When I was younger, MY Dad used to beat my mother & cheat on her. They were always argueing, I Really don't think they were happy together, just trying to stay w/ each other for the kid's sake [But in reality, Us staying with him would've been an immortal hell]. It seems like my dad used to throw all his anger on me, out of the 5 of us. It was weird [-sighs-] But I learned to ignore him. He stopped physically abusing me but he still occassionally calls with random bullshit [Anything to bring me down, trust me, my family will go to the extreme]. Anyhey, my point is, Stay strong. Its obvious that they don't know how to control their anger/frustration & So they take it out on someone else. And if you ever wanna talk, Dee's here. You can IM me anytime or call, I'll listen [I'm a good listener! I promise].

Get Well Soon. ♥ ♥ ♥

[lilbit2crazy]

-awww omg your comment brung tears to my eyes! happy tears and sad tears!! gawd i love u .. you are SO sweet! i look up 2 u in SO many ways! i dont know HOW u go through all this shit but you are ONE STRONG ASS PERSON! and i just thank you SO much for your words! im sorry about your childhood that is SO fucked up but im SO happy that its better now! yah my dad will go to the extreme with me too and say sum random ass shit! its so retarted! im SO scared of him and what he will do to me next.. but i'll be fine!! whats your sn? mine is crazylilhunny03 .. thank u SO much! gawd u dont know HOW much your comment ment to me! its nice to have people here to listen 2 me complain and shit like that! i love u

[_lovedefined]

Anytime Dear ;) Like I said, I'll listen. I know When that was going on with me, I wanted someone to relate too ;[

S/n = Her x Escape.

Love you more.

♥ ♥ ♥

[toyhearts]

Well, Nici, I'm sure you know what type of comments to expect. That's okay, I'll give it to you anyway. Even though, I prefer talking on aim with you opposed to letting bastards read my comments, but whatever, you're not on. So since I love you, I'll comment.

Why? is the question everyone wants answered. Whether it's from their boyfriend cheating, abuse, depression, etc. We all want to know why we had to have this life. Right? God knows you're one of the select few that can actually handle pain, and let pain make you a better person. So he gave you these tramatizing days, to help you find the real you. Patience Nici. You will be rewarded greatly for walking through the storm and seeing the sunlight. Everyone lashes out when they don't feel like they're getting attention. Look at me, I'm an out-of-control party animal & I've been in so much trouble, beyond what you can imagine. Maybe your dad doesn't feel like anyone listens to him, so he goes after you because he knows you will break down, and he can control you. I'm sorry

[lilbit2crazy]

*OMG OMG OMG LAURAN I FUCKING LOVE YOU TOOOOO!! omg that comment ment SO much to me! gawd your words are SOOOOOO just breath taking.. encourging... just everything i cant explain it!! yeah sumtimes i feel like giving up.. but its the people like YOUUUU who keep me going.thank you!! your like my best friend and you know im alwayz here for you! we have had SO many ups and so many downs.. but its all come 2gether in such a good friendship! i love you!you dont need to be sorry for anything. u didnt do ANYTHING lauran.. i dont know maybe this is my fault? maybe becuz i let him controll me.. maybe becuz i do shit 2 make him mad. maybe becuz i get angry and yell at him and he feels the need to BEAT MY ASS! i dont know? one day i will tho! but i know that i will NEVER let another man put there hands on me ever again and i will NEVER treat my kids like this!! well i gotta go get ready .. i love you and thank u SO much!!

*how do u do those hear things???im just gonna copy and paste!

♥♥♥♥ i love lauran!

[toyhearts]

Glad to hear it. I don't see how they're breath taking though, I don't know, I just speak my mind.
No, I don't think it's your fault. Have you tried telling someone? Because he needs serious help, like way serious. Just try to avoid him as much as possible, and try not to backmouth him too, because he seems out of control, and you never know what he's capable of.

Lmao, what hear things? You are so fucking retarded! I have NO idea what you're talking about Nici! :)

♥

[lilbit2crazy]

- aww but your SOOO sweet!! thats why they are breath-taking your such a good friend! like 1 in a million
- yeah i tryed to tell people about it. i was seeing a counsler about this. ive told the police but they cant do anything becuz they dont have like serouse PROOF and they have alot of other cases to work on. yeah i try to avoid him. ignor him and sh!t like that it doesnt work.. but i try my best
- and i was talking about the HEART signs

[seksi_dyme]

damnn.. just reading that broke my heart.. u never know what people's families are like behind an lj.. but i got a cold shiver when you read your story..

i dont even no what advice to give u.. all i can say is damn