i dont kno
i dont kno what wrong with me so im just gonna rant about random stuff while trying something new with the LJ...
i dont get what the hell is goning on around me anymore.. everything just seems to be piling up and smothering me to death, but when trying to look at it from another point of view, it doesnt seem that bad.
But when getting back into myself , it feels like i cant take it anymore and its going way over my head if that makes any sense. and it doesnt then i guess im not explaining it very well. it feels like im losing everything. i hate that feeling and i dont want to feel that way anymore.
my parents are attacking me all the time with all the yelling which is mostly directed at me and it makes me feel so bad about myself its unbearable. theres some other stuff that i really want to write about but im worried that some people who read this will take it the wrong way and everything else will just crumble down. god i wish i could stop myself from feeling this way but everything i try just doesnt work.
but theres really nothing i can do so.. whatever... here endith the rant
i dont get what the hell is goning on around me anymore.. everything just seems to be piling up and smothering me to death, but when trying to look at it from another point of view, it doesnt seem that bad.
But when getting back into myself , it feels like i cant take it anymore and its going way over my head if that makes any sense. and it doesnt then i guess im not explaining it very well. it feels like im losing everything. i hate that feeling and i dont want to feel that way anymore.
my parents are attacking me all the time with all the yelling which is mostly directed at me and it makes me feel so bad about myself its unbearable. theres some other stuff that i really want to write about but im worried that some people who read this will take it the wrong way and everything else will just crumble down. god i wish i could stop myself from feeling this way but everything i try just doesnt work.
but theres really nothing i can do so.. whatever... here endith the rant