I’m glad to have talked about it.

But it was the first part I was most upset about.

I hate always being so like…mysterious lol but like always I just cant get into it a huge amount because it’s very personal…so this will be kinda hard to follow.

I now know 200% there is something different about Patrick. How can I be so cocksure? I HATE seeing him cry. Like it’s the worse fucking thing ever. It hurts me. Every other guy I was ever ( Read more... )

I dont know why i want to be this....it scares me a lil

I really don’t have a huge amount to say. This thing hasn’t been updated in so long I feel the need to say SOMETHING.

So.

Mmm..

DISNEY!!!

Lol we got it paid for all we have to do is sit and wait <3 I’m so fucking excited. Like I really have no idea what to do with myself. I’m really going to disney with JUST my b/f. I’m so excited but also kinda ( Read more... )

I’m at home playing persona 3 and watching internet reviews while my boyfriend is getting drunk at a pseudo-rave with his friend who use to do heroin and a hippy slut who I’ve heard say “something I forget not to just touch people”

I may truly be a idiot.

Not a huge amount to update.

Me and Patrick have out first year coming up. One reason I’ve been back and forth on o-con is because of this. Thing is I wanted to do something big for our first year. Thing is that’s in june and o con isn’t too far away from it. I don’t know if I’d be able to get that much time off so close together. Really if I have ( Read more... )

So my first real day is done.

Tomorrow I have my first 8 hour day. Kinda scared about that mostly because it seems I’m going to be all alone. Plus there isn’t really jack shit to do. I’m really scared about this job because of that. I did okay talking to people today but I only had to do it for like 2 hours plus I could hide behind ana…ana isn’t ( Read more... )

So.

I got a job.

My love life is kick ass.

I’m feelin pretty damn good and I get into patricks car to hear this…

“I got bad news, like really bad news…” *deep breath* “ my mom’s heart is only working at 15%”

So THAT happened.

For real. I am cursed. It wouldn’t bother me so much if it wasn’t effecting people I love and went back to giving me all the shit ( Read more... )

So!! Heres a list of things that would make a normal person happy:

1) I got a kick ass b/f who love the fuck out of me

2) my ex paid me back and I have no reason to ever admit I even know the fucker anymore

3) I got a job after searching forever.

As I said these things should make me happy and to a point do but because I am insane it really….

MAKES ME ( Read more... )

Just how many times have a started a post with the words THIS GUY!…well add in this one

THIS GUY

Lol I finally got my letter <3. About damn time too I was starting to think I wouldn’t ever get that shit but it was worth the wait. Of course that isn’t the biggest shock of the night. As soon as he came him I gave him his shit gifts (scotch and some ( Read more... )