So it's friday, and i've completed what probably was one of the hardest weeks for me. I went all week and didn't speek to my ex. No text messages, no phone calls, nothing but two emails. That's pretty damn good for me considering I usually can't go more than a day or two. The thing about this week is I haven't cried since Sunday night. I won't say ( Read more... )

So a week or so I tried to do what I thought was best for me. I tried to write my ex out of my life for good for awhile. Well, it didn't last I couldn't do it. In actuality, I can't completely write her out of my life. I mean we share alot of things in common with one of those being our friends. So I gave in and I talked because in my head I knew I ( Read more... )

For so long, I have caused pain to so many people. In my head, I would come up with excuse after excuse to make a guy not good enough for me to love. Well, let's just say karma is a bitch. For the first time in my life, because I'm now realizing that the love I thought I had years ago is nothing compared to this, I let someone in and well "I myself ( Read more... )

I want to make you sigh every time i hold you ( Read more... )

So all I want is to be held right now. I wanna call and take back every thing I said last night. I feel like crap. I'm starting to get sick. I'm scared to go to the doctor because I already know what he's going to tell me. I'm not taking care of my self. Not eating right. Not getting enough sleep. Blah blah blah. I'm just so frustrated right now!! ( Read more... )

I was just reading my last update, and man has it been a long time. I promised I'd update atleast once a week, but I haven't been able to do that. Basketball has kept me so busy these days. Anyways, I was reading over my last journal entry and it's amazing how things change. That special someone I talked about in my last journal entry well we broke ( Read more... )

If you wanna read some good poetry I recommend e.e. cummings. very deep and meaningful poetry. here's a sample enjoy ( Read more... )

Well its been over a month since I last updated so I guess I have a lot to catch everyone up on. Basketball is going ok. The girls are coming along alot quicker than I thought they would. I've been really impressed with a few of them they have really stepped there game up. The other part of my job has been ok. I actually had kids finish their work ( Read more... )

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its been a long time since i last updated. so many things have happened in my life. for the first time in a long time i can honestly say i'm happy. i have met someone that truely warms my heart. i have been able to be myself with them and not hold anything back at all. i can actually say i am not guarding my heart with this person. i'm putting ( Read more... )