well today i felt depressed again i'm not sure why i think i have an emotional problem who knows oh well...i'm glad tho i brought joy to mrs jocelyn in sunday school because ive been trying to look at the positive with everything going on in my house what else am i supposed to do be all upset a bout it i cant ( Read more... )

Ok so i'm not so emotional today :) i'm in an ok mood i slept so much yesterday i got home from school talked online for a few and then at around 5 or 5 30 i went to bed and didnt wake up until 1ish and then checked my computer for messages and went back to bed til 9 this morning i can say i'm well rested and WONT be sleeping through my alarm clock ( Read more... )

ok so i just typed this long entry and it deleted it WONDERFUL! so ill start over ( Read more... )

Well to start off since theres a lot to talk about I finally decided the best thing for me was to end it with shawn...we are still friends and talk every day at school but no more relationship im not ready to be in a relationship but most of all i'm scared of the commitment...i always was until josh then got hurt and dont know if its worth it so i' ( Read more... )

ok so first off...i can betchya my dad isnt getting any better only worse...he was at the hospital on friday which scared the crap out of me....on wednesday he has to go get more tests done...and hopefully good news comes out of that...i dont know what i'll do with out my dad and then in church today...the pastor of course talks about emphazema and ( Read more... )

so many things i wish i would have done....so many things i wish i did different...so many memories that wont go away why does everything have to hit at once...why cant it be a little at a time...i just wanna run away and hide...move to alaska...anything to make things different....but most of all i wish things never had to change

i just dont get it anymore...i pray about it...i pray some more about it and yet i STILL pray about it and i feel like i'm getting no where i know God's there and that its most likely just tempting me...but i can't handle it i feel like i'm going to explode into a billion pieces...i dont understand why he let me fall if he knew he was just going to ( Read more... )

hmm...just need a place to write ( Read more... )

I'm offically done writing in this

Yesterday was probably one of the best days I've had in a longgg time!!! Me Josh James and Rach went down to New Symrna to James condo where his dad and sisters were and we spent the day there It was wonderful to not have to get up extra early (even though I was still up at 7 for some crazy reason) and not have to rush out the door so we have ( Read more... )