Excuse my language, but I think the shit has hit the fan. Ok, where to even begin with this night?!?! I hung out with John for a big part of it, I've been doing some stuff I shouldn't have been doing lately, and I know it. I wanted attention, there I said it. Mostly I'm talking about what I've been smoking. But for those of you who didn't know it, ( Read more... )

There's nothing I can say in my defense. I know there isn't. And I'm tired of lying. So yeah, other than that, I have been a coniving bitch lately, no arguments there. But I won't give you guys any more of a reason to be mad at me. I'll behave, and do what I'm actually supposed to. I'm sorry Sam, I know I told you to trust me, and I fucked it up ( Read more... )

Well, John and Monica figured out I have a schedule. One day I go to the gym, the next I go to their house. Disturbing, isn't it? Steve compared me to the devil tonight, which, by some accounts, I must say is quite accurate. Other than that, I did just sit around all day playing the Sims. I really must do something better tomorrow. Right now I'm ( Read more... )

I had to reload two operating systems for my mom and grandma last night. It was so easy, but when I tried to show my mom, she got really lost. Today, I (as usual) woke up at about 12. Then I have been playing The Sims all day, up until now. I have no ambition today. I didn't even (gasp!) make my bed. Well, not yet at least. How the hell will I be ( Read more... )

An ordinary day I suppose. I woke up, did some errands. Then I dropped Stef off at alt school, and I had been texting John and Amanda the whole day. I went to the casino after that, and lost a clean $50. Nothing new on that I suppose. After that, I couldn't for the life of me decide what I wanted to do, so I went to Brainerd again. I went to Wal- ( Read more... )

Hello to all you in Livejournalland. Ok, my day today was great. I woke up kinda mad because of last night, and went to the gym to beat the crap out of the treadmill. But instead, I had one of the best workouts I've ever had. It was a nice suprise. Then I went to Brainerd, met Sam and John for lunch at Applebees. That was cool to, best raspberry ( Read more... )

Well, I'm doing much better than last night. Trust me on this. I wasn't depressed, or even suicidal, but hey, whatever works. Teen angst, can't beat it. I'm drinking Wild Cherry Pepsi. Hmmmm.....nothing has really happened today, because I just woke up about 40 minutes ago. But I have taken a shower, and my mom said I look like a (?) gymnast today ( Read more... )

Yeah, nice subject huh? I'm sorry to all who have been unfortunate to be around me lately. I don't mean to be this way, it just won't stop though. I'm worried, like I know something bad is going to happen. But I won't burden the rest of you with it. There are two main reasons I've never actually committed suicide, #1 is my dad, it was so selfish of ( Read more... )

A wife comes home and tells her husband, "Dear, something is wrong with my car. It's got water in the carburetor ( Read more... )

Other peoples dreams have come to play an important part in my life. They so obviously want something, and if I can find something to help them, I'll try. Mostly this is because I have lost focus of my dreams. They used to be so clear, but lately....eh, there losing their luster. But honestly, this hasn't bothered me, I've updated my dreams. ( Read more... )