these days i just can't seem to be happy anymore. the days seem eternally dreary and endless and grey, like the street in front of my house. always empty, the only thing changing is the placement of the sun in the sky and the shadows of the houses as they fall on one another. i try to study, but what for? lost in the painful passage of each ( Read more... )

(is that the right way to say that? i heard it on a commercial for starving children in africa.)

have fever. body aches all over and chills...was just better on Monday from my previous bout with the el gripe. now instead of once a month, i seem to be getting sick every other week. went home today after lying in mr. button's recliner with Karen ( Read more... )

its a Saturday 7:15PM and where am i? at home. again. when was the last time i was sick? just last month. it comes and goes like my menstrual cycle. i had to go home during second period yesterday because i felt so horrible... i don't know what to do.... someone please help me... i don't want to waste away in my sixteenth winter. it has been told ( Read more... )

next friday is my driver's test.... anxiety washes over me, then i calm myself with sweet lies about how the Westminster DMV is supposed to be the easiest one ( Read more... )

here it is, another new year... so much has changed for me this year. i remember last year on this day we had a dinner party at our house, shteen and jen were here and most everyone were healthy. everything's so different now ( Read more... )

what is so great about christmas anyway? bah humbug. this morn i awoke to the melody of my three brothers shouting downstairs. burrowing deeper into my uncomfortable bed, i stalled until 11AM and then officially woke up. we (we meaning me and my cousins Christine and Jen who just came down yesterday night) hung around, ate breakfast, exchanged ( Read more... )

acckkk! driver's test Friday jan. 16 at 2 ( Read more... )

whew, ever since friday so much has happened! i don't know where to start... needless to say, vacation is getting real old real quick, in that i have nothing to do. i don't want to go to the mall for the millionth time when i have no money left, even tho i want a ton of things from AE and Abercrombie (so what else is new ( Read more... )

Message from Bijan (714)717-7442 12/14 11:25AM:

God damnit you get me so pissed off sometimes!

this morn i had to wake at 8 to get to driving school to complete driver's ed. it was quite an experience. the shady vietnamese place that my dad's friend owns (you know how it is with parent's friends and their 'connections') issued me a certificate so i could take the written test after only one class, and then today after three hours of driver's ( Read more... )