i hate knowing there is a rift between friendships and knowing you are the cause of it, but not knowing what to do to remedy the situation. i feel so helpless and at times hopeless and i just yearn for us to be us again in the way that we always were and have been and i hope i am not running to other outlets of pleasure and fun just to get my mind ( Read more... )

so i went to stepping stones today and it was rather good. i actually felt something when i sang and though the talk was a bit topwater i still drew from it applicability towards my own life and found it at times quite personal. i've also never been much of a fan of the sort of communion that takes place there, but today i was so touched by the ( Read more... )

so last night i got far too much sleep! i am worthless today because of it - to go from getting between 3-5 hours of sleep every night to getting 10 just totally screws your poor body up. today i am dealing with the repercussions of getting too much instead of not enough sleep guys ( Read more... )

guys its official... i love to dress up and i love being a chi o and i love my pledge class. thats all - now i have to learn german numbers. null, eins, zwei, drei, vier, funf, sechs, sieben, acht, neun, zehn -- and that's NOT from memory. stupid modern german artists!! why can't they speak my language!

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i'm up in jackson lab working on some stuff and eating the heck out of a deli casino sandwich... the turkey gambler is out of this world. how have i lived in this terrible city for so long and happen to just have just now stumbled upon so great an entreprenuerial venue. they will receive much more patronage from me in the future ( Read more... )

it sucks when you are finally getting over emotional heartache and then the blasted thing starts physically hurting. i swear... the thing is just faulty ( Read more... )

so tonight was bid night for me - the junior who has decided to finally start living an actual stereotypical college life. it was actually a lot of fun and i am glad i decided to rush and everything ( Read more... )

i lived in a bubble today. i'm pretty sure it wasn't apparent to (almost) anyone else. i just walked and talked and laughed and spoke and drove in a trance. sleep-deprivation mixed with concern and worry and excitement. right this moment i am wondering so much about today and tomorrow and the next day. i really need some sleep, though for those ( Read more... )

i hate it when you think things are going really well and then you just don't know. i hate it when you think something is going to happen and it doesn't. i hate being ready for something that someone else doesn't seem to be ready for. i hate that i care too quickly and get too involved and really put so much into my relationships with other ( Read more... )

school starts tomorrow and i am (after a trip to wal-mart for school supplies) officially ready for it to begin. i think i am getting myself into a lot of things that i have no idea about... but i am just an idiot!