went up to kent last night with erik poo. met all his friends, trae, kelsey, finch, and way too many more i cant fully remember. it was uber uber fun =) all the boys liked boys, minus jefferey who molested me, and all the girls liked girls. and i actually kinda.. met someone... named kelsey. she's crazy amazing. i might be a tad bit smitten... not ( Read more... )

i'm tired. i'm hungry. i don't want to move from my bed. i want to be alone and i want to be surrounded by people. i got invited to go snowboarding today, but they didn't end up going. still exciting to be invited. i kinda made myself accept. i had a sleep over this weekend. my first real one in about a year. i almost backed out. but in the end i ( Read more... )

i bought a locket, a locket locket locket. =)
the front has praying hands. and the back reads,
"god, grant me the serentity to accept the things i cannot change,
the courage to change the things i can,
and the wisdom to know the difference."

i lurve it.


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went to winter jam:


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"listen very closely i dont care what happens in your life or what you do or who you do i dont want to know you anymore or have anything to do with"

from josh.
thanks.

it was incredible. i actually cried a lot. toby mac was amaaazing. afterwords i met hawk nelson and brandon heath, got a picture with him. =) hawk nelson liked my jacket. hehe. ahh i love my friends.

and toby mac
a lot

get the fuck out of my head.

the guilt got to me about larry, and i told josh. i was so stupid to think he would believe i was doing it for both our good's not just mine. he called me  a tramp, a slut, told me i should feel dirty. that i just wanted to cause drama. he put it all on me, and none on larry. he didn't even think i was telling him the truth. he told me to never ( Read more... )

had my LEC visit today. god i loved it! the perfect fit for me. my admissions director remembered me and really likes me a lot. i got to meet the head of the pshyc. department and the teachers. i also met the fine arts instructors, and the english and journalism teachers. they were all so nice. they're pshyc. program sounds really good. both mom ( Read more... )

anyone want to hold me... maybe for three or so hours. that's what i need right now. i wonder if you can hire a male prostitute to just hold me for a while? i just want.. to feel alive.

when everything's made to be broken. i just want you to know who i am.