identity....?

[lilly_faust]

Well, 2011 was an exciting year. At the beginning of it I was a half-crazed college student, starving and poor and hell-bent on finishing. There was the earthquake.... and that was really weird and exciting and scary. Then I just went straight into working after I graduated. There wasn't really any soul-searching time, I was just glad to have a job

Comments

[boukun_rashiku]

It's an interesting situation. Having who you are now feel irreconcilable with that punk girl from high school...I can see it. It was over a year since I last saw you but I kindof got that feeling from you even back then. The way you worded this, that you're having trouble presenting your ego to the world, is really excellent. People really underestimate how much feedback from the outside world shapes who we are, especially when you have to be a way that you didn't used to be. It's not that either is unnatural, really, but it's disorienting I'm sure. Good luck, Kitty.

[lilly_faust]

Thank you. It was WSM that helped me express, vent, and transform that anger and powerlessness that I felt in high school into a punky, quirky image that I felt made me stronger. But now that I'm not consumed by those feelings anymore and I've removed myself from a toxic environment (i.e. my family) I just don't feel that way. Being with our group of wonderful friends really helped me to deal with and move past those nasty seething feelings. Now I need to reflect myself without those blaring in the front, but being so very far and separated from that support group makes everything a billion times harder. This is me, just without the poison. =/