Half my crap is gone and pretty much all of my special items. I havent got anymore letters even. I'm a little peeved. I suspect foul play. Grrrrr..... I was kinda hoping to get back into the Gaia thing. But now I'm too pissed off.

I get upset when people dont pay attention to me. And at the same time I hate being in the spotlight. I just need to embrace the rock dwelling sourpuss that I truly am, and then I'll be happy to live out my life in the shadows. I sunburn, anyhow.

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WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED! I gained so much weigh in two years. I would be happy to be back to the weight I was then, even though I was still a fatty. (Cry)


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Just made a bunch of pesto pasta to take with me tomorrow to Aunt Noel's house. Should be tasty. tomato-ie-artichoke-onion-ie....pasta-ie-goodness.....mmmm ( Read more... )

Family dinner was good. Mom made REEEEAAAAALY good pumpkin pie gingerbread stuff and I ate too much. As always. And then I thought I would die. But that's okay. Got to talk to Gareth as well, seems he is doing well in the frozen north so far ( Read more... )

Most of the things I do that irritate and anger others, the petty fits and squabbles, inconsistancies.... I'll tell you (I'm being totally truthful now) the reasons for most of them are mysteries even to me ( Read more... )

Megans still carving ( Read more... )

Punkin' carving at the PI (Pollock Institute) was a HIT! Birthday was awsome, after a few craptacular days it was nice to have something good happen to me. Although yesterday wasn't too bad, just Furling dying made it hard to be cheerful. But tonight with all the wackyness of family, Stinky being there, and Megan, seemed to smooth everything out ( Read more... )

I didn't have her very long... But I tried very hard to be a good Mom. And after all the emotional threads carefully tied, like so many spiderwebs, much stronger than they seem.... everything fell apart. The threads were harshly torn. And reality sets in. In the end, I cant save a goddamn thing from death. Not myself, not the tiny life I was ( Read more... )