never ending....

[lilmissinnocent]

This is a never ending battle for me. NEVER fails. I always get the assholes. I hate fighting, i hate the little arguements, I hate that I can't trust him after what I heard, I had being lied to, I hate being this "girl" that is soo sensitive, I hate how soft hearted I am, I hate that is seems like I can never be happy, I hate bitching yet i seem

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[blulite5656]

Cindel, you're only twenty years old. Don't think about all that crap. You should be having fun and not having a care in the world except for family and friends and school. You should have the mind-set that if something isn't working out and you know it's not then let it go, kick it to the curb. You know it's not you, it's the asshole you're with. Why stay with someone that makes you feel like that most of the time and makes you feel great some of the time. It should be the other way around. Let him go, work your ass off, make that money, get your degree, make your own happy life. Because if a guy doesn't make you happy, at least you can fall back on YOUR happy life.

ding ding ding..

[lilmissinnocent]

lol ur totally right. I know i should just get over him, not let him get to me. I know he is bad news for me. I'm trying to let him go, its hard right now but I know its the best for me. Im going to work on me right now, like going to school, working out cuz when i start COA the YMCA will be like 25-30 dollars a month soo im going to wait until then. Its like 50 a month without being in school. Im not going to let him get the best of me because I let him know how much he hurts me and the more i seem to show him the more he seems to do so. SOO Im not going to deal with him anymore. Im not going to call him, im not going to see him, if he calls its just going to be as friends, thats it. Im done, im over it. I will find someone else who is going somewhere in life, who will treat me right, and who is going to love me for me.

thanks for the advice.

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[jessann_510]

ahh sad thing is i know EXACTLY how u feel and it sucks!!

[so_unladylike]

cindel, if I haven't told you once, I've told you a million times. You're 20. Babe, you have years before even thinking who the "right one" is. Who cares? I don't think NC has much to offer you, so why look for a reason to stay? None of those guys there, are up to your standards, & you KNOW you can do better. You have so many more important & better things to be focusing on, rather the low-life white trash druggie guy. I know you know you're better than what you're recieving. So why bother? You say you're over it, and you're sick of it... yet every journal entry is about him & how he's hurting you. i ♥ you too much for you to keep letting youreself get treated like shit. Move on, have fun & come home.